ten rawks!

2008-07-07T00:57:00.002+08:00

yesterday's beach touch was super fun!
dived in the sand and its not painful at all!
and the weather was super nice haha.
really had fun.
managed to enter the quarter finals.
its really a very enjoyable day.
i love beach fun touch!((:

after that carnival went to vivo to eat.
camwhore-ed and laughed like crazy at the bridge there.
im falling in love with my team((:

next coming tournament is on next sat!
a very important tournament.
" youth in touch "
C'mon team, we can do it!

i'll fight for my team i dont care.
whether with or without support from everyone, im going to fight all out for my team.
but ofcos at the same time protecting them.
i hate it when people look down on my team.
i will hate them even more if its from my own school.
i hate it when nobody supports us.
but im not giving in.
jialin, u've got to fight harder!

2008-06-29T21:38:00.001+08:00

Next Saturday is beach touch!! Haha. Finally got one day can go down to the beach even though its going to be super hot and we’ll be running on sand and might burn our feet doing that. Anyway we’re going to be roasted chicken to be under the sun for one whole day from morning till night. But i think its a good chance to bond up and team! Haha. Let go beachy-touchy!! Haha

Stupid jialin!! Wad are u doing?!! This few days everything also do like shit. Rrr.. its time to wake up and sort out ur thoughts! Whether in rugby or studies u’re doing good enough. C’mon!
Oh man this term PW is going to be extremely hard to handle. PW plus 12.5 weeks to mid-course exam. Its ok u can do it! ((: jiayou!

Have faith that things will improve(:

I’ve decided to forgive and forget and let go. Cos friendship isn’t like this. I deserve better. I hate it when i always have to hold things back. I hate it when i always have to be the one initiating the reconciliation. I hate it when u make it sound like you really would treasure but end up giving up first. Because u see other things more important than me. Because u take me and all these things for granted. I’m giving it all up. Cos i see no reason to stay. But still, thank you for all the yesterday. Because u used to mean alot to me. Because u used to be there for me. Because u used to put me as priority. Because u used to be.

2008-06-22T20:19:00.003+08:00

dedicated to all my friends especially ohan((:
- no one can take away our yesterday

I just cant believe your gone
Still waitin for mornin to come
When I see if the sun will rise, in the way that your by my side

Well we got so much in store
Tell me what is it im reaching for
When were through building memories
i'll hold yesterday in my heart
In my heart

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we never play
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we will go
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday

You always choose to stay
I should be thankful for everyday
Heaven knows what the future holds, or least where the story goes
I never believed untill now
I know il see you again im sure
No its not selfish to ask for more
One more night one more day one more smile on your face
But they cant take yesterday
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made

They can take the music that we never play
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we will go
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday

I thought our days would last forever
But it wasnt our destiny
Cause in my mind we had so much time, but I was so wrong
No I can believe that
I can still find the strengh in the moments we made
Im lookin back on yesterday

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we never play
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we will go
All the broken dreams take everything
just take it away,but they can never have yesterday

All the broken dreams take everything
but they can never have yesterday

2008-06-22T14:50:00.007+08:00

ok this is probably the last time that im going to post in this blog untill dunno when cos after tml when school start, my zombie days are going to start as well and then all the homework and studies will start to flood me.

sorry to all that i always lose contact with.

but i guess u always have to give up some to gain some.

17/6

went to school in the morning den went to lifen's hse to bake cookies together with mingqi and junice!
first time baking cookies even though we didnt start from scratch.

we bought those kind of package whereby u just need to add butter and egg den can bake le.

haha but well, we still had fun((:

too many photos, not enough time so i'll just post a few.

i love them still(:

- to them:

im sorry guys, i always can't find time to meet up with you all often.

i cant promise i'll make it better cos i have so many commitments, school stuff, touch rugby, project work.

im not somebody good at handling time.

but i still love you guys alright((:

hope to see you all at the beach on 5th july((:

thursday

had training finally.

its crazy.

but fulfilling(:

team dinner!

though not everyone present but its so fun!

everyone laughed like throughout the whole dinner esp after the dinner!

if only this was arranged earlier, like during the hols and not near the end of the hols.

i think we can just laugh into the night.

i love my team((:

friday

first thing in the morning im already feeling nauseous.

still went to school.

on the train still feel sick.

during maths lecture its really unbearable.

after maths lecture, vomited in the toilet.

after that walked to causeway.

still considering to take train or cab home.

finally cant take it and cabbed home.

nobody's home.

thought after a sleep i'll be fine.

but still vomit.

whole day didnt eat anything at all.

finally went to see doc.

that doc so weird one.

still can chat with me.

cos i told him at first i thought its because of not enough rest thats why will vomit den he still can chat and ask why not enough sleep? den i told him i got training.

wad training?

u all train for this year or next year?

u play this sport since secondary school?

and the worst thing is besides medicine for vomiting he also prescribed me vitamin B and ointment to rub for muscle aches and panadol when i dun have a fever.

zzz..

i really got nothing else to say.

after eating the medicine feeling better.

but got diarrhea.

went to see another doctor.

this time this doctor is better.

after eating his medicine the next day recover le.

today

omg omg OHAN came back from her one month trip le!!

last night i missed her like crazy la!!

but one month plus and shes leaving again):

but i'll try to make this frenship memorable(:

i love OHAN((:

2008-06-16T18:06:00.003+08:00

studied econ at home for the whole day but i think im just wasting my time.
not paying attention to what im reading at all la!
ok nvm.
anyway i came across these story today and i find it meaningful!

Different people have different perception.
One man's meat could be another man's poison.
A couple bought a donkey from the market.
On the way home, a boy commented, 'Very stupid. Why neither of them ride on the donkey? 'Upon hearing that, the husband let the wife ride on the donkey.
He walked besides them. Later, an old man saw it and commented, 'The husband is the head of family.
How can the wife ride on the donkey while the husband is on foot?'
Hearing this, the wife quickly got down and let the husband ride on the donkey.
Further on the way home, they met an old Lady.
She commented, 'How can the man ride on the donkey but let the wife walk.
He is no gentleman.'
The husband thus quickly asked the wife to join him on the donkey.
Then, they met a young man.
He commented, 'Poor donkey, how can you hold up the weight of two persons.
They are cruel to you.'
Hearing that, the husband and wife immediately climbed down from the donkey and carried it on their shoulders.
It seems to be the only choice left.
Later, on a near row bridge, the donkey was frightened and struggled.
They lost their balance and fell into the river.
"You can never have everyone praise you, nor will everyone condemn you. Never in the past, not at present, and never will be in the future."

A man asked his father-in-law, 'Many people praised you for a successful marriage.
Could you please share with me your secret?'
The father-in-law answered in a smile, 'Never criticize your wife for her shortcomings or when she does something wrong.
Always bear in mind that because of her shortcomings and weaknesses, she could not find a better husband than you.'
We all look forward to being loved and respected.
Many people are afraid of losing face.
Generally, when a person makes a mistake, he would look around to find a scapegoat to point the finger at.
This is the start of a war.
We should always remember that when we point one finger at a person, the other four fingers are pointing at ourselves.
If we forgive the others, others will ignore our mistake too.

'Good Life starts only when you stop wanting a better One'

'Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away '

i love all these kind of creative phrases.
just one sentence and it speaks it all(:

miracles

piles of smiles

2008-06-14T23:02:00.003+08:00

teach me, teach me.
how do i fight for my team?
hold on to wad i think is right and argue all the way?
hack care about wad he thinks and just ignore him and do wad is needed?
teach me how.

its not that i dont dare to argue back.
but im afraid of the consequences.
i dont want things to fail in my hands.
i dont want people to be affected by what i do
i want to protect my team.
but at the same time fight for them.

teach me how.

nobody's watching it, forget it.
theres always excuses.
u make room for others but not me.
-the last paragraph is a different subject.

2008-06-13T21:36:00.003+08:00

stupid la..holiday is ending soon!!!
why do we have to study so much?
at the end of the day we might not even use half of wad we learn in school!
stupid stupid stupid...

how i wish everyday is like going to a theme park.
where u play ur hearts out without a care.
just play and play.
dun need to bother about things not completed.
dun need to bother about exams coming.
everyone is your friend there.
u dun have to bother about wad u do, wad u say and u dun have to bother about wad others do or say.
u just do wad u want cause nobody there knows you, nobody there cares about wad u do.
wadeva u do will not lead to any consequences.
and time is unlimited.
fun is unlimited.
just let go and play!

all the things mentioned above is just a dream!
dream on!
this kind of thing will never happen.
nevermind.
dreaming like this is quite fun actually.
haha atleast in my dreams this really came true haha.
ok back to earth, jialin.
u still got a lot of homework not done.
go and do your homework and you can play TOUCH! tomorrow and sunday.

even though june holidays is coming to an end soon.
even though the nightmares are coming your way.
even though ur zombie days are nearing.
but still, c o m p l e t e y o u r h o m e w o r k f i r s t.
ok enough of whinning and grumbling here.
go study.

smile like these

2008-06-11T23:50:00.002+08:00

Shall start today's post with orange((:
ok today is the first time i have CURRY FISHHEAD!!

ok i was supposed to go out with my classmates to meet the Camp instructors but there was some complication ytd night regarding the outing so i thought it was called off.
in the end at 5 plus my fren suddenly call me and ask me if im coming down den she say she sent me a msg saying the outing is still on.
but my phone's old stupid problem come back again so i cant see any msg or receive any call.
so in the end i chose to go with justina they all for CURRY FISHHEAD!
this is the first time i eat curry fishhead ok!
haha and its quite nice((:
after that went to some other place to chat and stuff and head home!

yea..sunday's coming!
4 on 4 mixed touch at NTU.

homework is driving me crazy!!

faber drive song are all so nice!

ok random haha.

ytd went to watch Knugfu Panda with my best fren.
so funny inside the show got one tortoise and he is a master so they called him master Wu Gui.
hahahha made me laugh non-stop in the cinema la hahaha.
but i like one of the line that the master Wu gui said:

" yesterday is history, tomorrow is mystery and today is a gift. thats why its called present"

hha i never knew there is a second part that says" thats why its called present "

ok shall go and do some hw and sleep.
tml still got intensive PW meeting! roar!

2008-06-10T22:50:00.002+08:00

GP IS DRIVING ME CRAZY AND HOLIDAY HOMEWORK ARE DROWNING ME...

ok this is really bad.
its like the 3rd week of june hols but i still have many many things to do...
at first i thought i will atleast have a chance to go down to the beach and enjoy the sun before school starts and all the stupid schoolwork start coming back into my life again.
omg,i haven enjoy my holiday yet u know!!!! )))):
when school starts im going to have eyebags, moody mornings, draggy feet, stressy face again!
idiot idiot idiot!!!

continue from wad happened during the camp..

ok after coming down for mountain, our next event is supposed to be the expedition to the waterfall.(if im not wrong)
but because of bad weather, it was called off.
and then we get to rest at the chalet for one night.
it was like flying from hell to heaven man haha.
after one night of shitting on the mountain, we finally get to rest in the air-conditioned room haha.
after that in the night we had another event : confidence night walk.
actually i personally think that it has nothing to do with confidence.
girls paired up in twos and just walk straight along the path.
guys walked alone.
in the middle are two poor male instructors feeding mosquitos.
after everyone finished the walk, we went back to the chalet for debrief by Aniq & Edmund.
actually only Aniq was talking.
Edmund only stand behind the pillar and listen, refused to say something due to shyness or something.
everyone kept teasing pak with edmund haha so funny.
ok, so Aniq told us his story.
quite scary but i think everything he said really teach me that we should treasure everyone around us and stuff.
Aniq is really a good instructor * clap clap*
then suddenly dunno why everyone was gathered at the carpark and the teachers gave some talk and stuff ( normal lame stuff ).
we went back to debrief and mr sim join us as well.
after that, lights off.

next morning, next event is the outdoor games thingy.
played INDIANA JONES.
quite fun and they say its the only game that u would learn things from compared to other alternatives but i still hope we can go for the river cascading):
after that i dunno wad else happened.

ok actually im abit confused abt wad we did on which day so just read the events dun bother abt the dates ok.

ok so there was one day in the afternoon i guess, we went for kayaking in the Johor river.
quite fun but just that it wasnt long enough.
Aniq left us after that to settle some stuff in singapore.
he gave us a debrief before he leave and a hugg as well.
we had dinner there and after dinner next event is the FIRE-FLIES!
THEY ARE SO BEAUTIFUL!!
they are all over the trees blinking and blinking like the lights on the Christmas tree.
some of them caught a few fire-flies in the zip-lock bag and passed it around for us to see.
they are so small, so vulnerable.
like those flies u see flying in ur house during rainy days.
but they are so amazing!
they are so small yet they shine so brightly that u can spot them from afar.
and when they fly, they look like some kind of sparks coming from the magic wand haha.
really very beautiful((:

after fire-flies watching, we went back to n debrief-ed by edmund for a short while.
didnt bathe on that night again cos i dun dare to use the dirty toilet haha.
so washed my hair and changed clothes only.
listening to them gossip till i sleep.

next morning played some outdoor games.
cleared the canteen and everyone packed stuff and gathered at the canteen.
had some cheering competition among the 3 division and yea! division C won.
watched the slides of the whole camp and my face appeared a few times in the slides cos my group is the first group to reach the summit so we took some pics.
i want those pictures!!
but dont think the school will post it on MLG or wad.
maybe can get from mr sim((:
so after all these stuff we're finally heading home!!
haha its probably the happiest thing that happened ever since the start of this disastrous camp.
everyone said that this is the worst camp ever.
quite true, but i think ok la, atleast i tried climbing a mountain.
nice experience((:

although this is a bad camping experience but atleast i learnt more about people around me.
how they do things, their personality.
and i really realise that life in singapore is so good.
im so fortunate.
i bet people in those third-world country live in places worse than our campsite.
and we're really taking things here in singapore for granted.
alright people, lets stop whinning and grumbling about life here because there are alot of people who cant even afford to have a life like ours.
so treasure what you have and be contented with it((:

2008-05-30T12:34:00.002+08:00

ok i know my blog is rotting like crazy haha.

exams exams exams everyday preparing for exams untill summer test ended den we finally can relax a bit. anyway i think im going to fail my summer test lol. i was quite excited when packing my bag for the camp and i realised that zip lock bags really helps alot in packing. alright, so everyone was looking forward to the Kota Tinggi J1 leadership camp at malaysia cos we're the first innova batch to have a camp in malaysia. but in the end it became one of the worst camp ever.. haha

we assembled in the morning in school den board the bus and start our journey to malaysia. everyone was so excited about wad we're going to do there. upon reaching, everyone was asked to assembled at the so-call restaurant to have our lunch. after that, the 3 different division start their activities and for my division, division C had mountain climbing as our first activity.

this is the first time im climbing a mountain but probably the last time.
the mountain is only 500 plus metre but when we're climbing i have no idea how many hours we take to reach there. the whole journey up there was very inefficient.
cos they wan us to go there together as a whole division which means there'll be a lot of waiting in between.
my group is the first group to reach the summit and im the first girl ok hahaha cos i cant stand people dilly-dally behind.
ok so after HOURS of climbing, we finally reach the summit, BUT not the campsite yet.
even though theres still like one or two hour plus before we finally reach our destination, everyone was quite happy to see the extremely nice view of malaysia.
we took a photo there using our section IC Fraddy's camera and hes so idiot tell us he wont show it to anyone but in the end still posted it in the slides.
so after resting awhile we moved on to let other groups that were behind to rest there and take a look at the view.
but the groups took alot of breaks even when we're going to reach the campsite so in the end it slowed down everyone and even though we're the first group to reach, its already very dark when we reach.
so the groups behind us was even worse. they reach there after nightfall.
after reaching the campsite its already very dark and we still have to pitch the tent using only torchlight and then everyone was so disorganized.
alot of complaints start to come, everyone commenting abt each other which i totally dislike. i mean this is a class.
even though everyone have different cliques, we have to bond up as a class.
everyone kept saying that the class is not bonded enough, but the thing is we're not trying our best to bond up at all.
everyone just say what they think without even thinking abt how the rest will feel.
sometimes they are just too straight-forward and often they think about themselves and complain too much without knowing that they themselves make mistakes too.
so after pitching the tents, we proceed to cooking the food- maggie mee, hotdog, baked beans- its not easy to cook this way with dim light and a small fire.
the food was not very nice cos after soaking in water for too long the maggie becomes soggy.
but sorry la, the water boils too slowly.
in fact the water didnt boil at all, its only heated up.
i cooked for one of our instructor Edmund-a quite good looking guy haha but not only i say that ok, everyone thinks so- ok haha even though he say its soggy.
after that i cooked for my fren and then myself.
but for mine i cooked 2 packs and shared it with my classmate.
pakleng gave me some baked beans.
after eating, our instructor Aniq gave us a debrief and from the start of the debrief i started feeling stomach pain.
but i didnt wan to go to the toilet which is the nature haha so i tried to sleep and hopefully the pain will go off.
but in the end it didnt.
only when my fren ask me to go to the toilet with her den i cant take it and told her i also need to the toilet badly.
when i was waiting for her to wear her shoes i was like squating down and shivering cos the pain is really terrible.
so we made our way to the toilet slowly after asking one of the instructor the way.
when we reach we realised that we're not the only ones having diarrhea cos there are shit everywhere inside the toilet.
ok basically, the toilet is just a small area surrounded by bushes and the door is just a cloth or dunno wad.
so everyone else will wait just outside and u'll just shit inside.
i tell u i'll never go to the toilet unless i need it badly.
i think everyone else think the same way cos its really smelly and disgusting.
if u didnt see carefully u might just step on somebody's pile of shit can.
and if u use the torchlight and shine the light on the floor u'll see alot of tissue paper and thats where everyone's shit is and some of the shit that are not covered is really disgusting.
its really a big pile can.
so i just shitted at whichever place i can find and after shitting i felt better but still feeling weak.
i waited for my fren whiele she's shitting and then after that we headed back to our tents.
thank God i brought packs of wet tissue but all of us almost ran out of tissue.
tissue is a scarce resource at that time mann.
i was feeling so terrible in the tent i kept telling my fren i wan to go home.
i kept saying tml after going down the mountain im going straight home cos i was feeling really really terrible.
i tried to sleep but stil cant make it so i went to shit with my fren twice.
bt only the first time got shit come out.
the next 2 times is mostly air only.
so after the third time me and my fren dun dare to sleep already cos we're afraid that if we lie down we'll feel like shitting again.
so we sit there and chatted for quite some time.
i tried to use my fren's phone to call people but dunno why theres reception but it always says network busy.
so we just chat and chat untill about 3 plus, 4 plus when we're really tired and dun feel uncomfortable anymore, den we sleep.
but for the third time i shit, the toilet is like filled with more shit.
even the waiting area also got shit.
i think its becos people cant take it le so just shit there.
i tell u i'll never forget how the shit looks like mann.
its a big ball of normal shit accompanied with watery shit the side.
omg even describing it makes me feel sick.
okok so while chatting with my fren i realised this is the first time that i have so much to talk about with her.and i never knew i will have so much to talk about with her.
so after chatting we slept all the way till morning.
and my fren sleeping next to me say in the night i kept hugging her arm like a pillow den lying on her shoulder to sleep haha.

so that morning i know its very disgusting but, everyone didnt brush their teeth and neither did they bathe on the first day or that morning haha.
cos we scared not enough water to drink so we didnt brush our teeth in the morning.
i was feeling so disgusting can!
so when we descend, we have to go down a very very steep route!
we have to hold on to the ropes and slowly climb down.
its really very scary la!
when i climb down to the ground i seriously dunno how i made it down cos its really quite high.
so after that we again walked a long way down to the bottom of the mountain.
but this time the route is shorter than the route we took to go up the mountain.
but the route got a lot of leeches!!
omg omg they are so disgusting can!!
i found 3 on my ankle and then i keep screaming when trying to use the insect repellent to spray at it.
den after spraying it will slide down one yucks so disgusting so disgusting!!
ok so we walk and walk and finally we reach the bottom of the mountain and we're all so so sososososososo happy!!!!

to be continued.. cos i forgot the sequence of events le haha. i totally cant rmb on which day we do what. all i rmbed is we played indiana jones, confidence night walk-ed, kayak-ed and viewed the fireflies, but we missed out the waterfall!

2008-04-06T16:35:00.005+08:00

hahaha alright frens, been damm damm busy with the stupid Project Work and many many tests and tutorials. so sorry didnt update this rotting blog here.

alright, shall update as much as possible within the limited time i have here haha.

stupid PW and chem tests and many many tutorials have been filling up my life recently.

many resposibilities pressing me down so hard i feel so exhausted sometimes.

but really wanna thank all the frens who have been supporting me all this while((:
thanks ohan, justina, frankie, xiao qing, my twinee mervin and many more..((:

been having loads of fun in touch rugby. last trg had mud all over the shirt, legs, hands, face, shorts and hair! hahaha. it may sound dirty and disgusting with all these muddy mudd all over us but its not! cos we're having fun. now im not afraid of mud! haha. i love mudds and the grassy field now heh. but i have alot of abrasions on my knee from the result of the prev trg haha. and oh yes! my blue toe hee. its realy blue. cos when i first bought the boots, its quite tight and then got once lydia accidentally stepped on my toe during the game and then after trg i look at my toe and was surprised how come my toe nail is blue in colour. at first i thought its some ink but then i thought it cant be cos my shoe where got blue ink one. haha so after a close look, i realise its blue-black inside! and then many ppl start to tel me that the nail will fall off soon. lol it really freaked me out. but it haven drop out yet so i assume it wont. anyway my nails are quite hard dun think it will drop off right hah.

next next week is the touch rugby carnival le. feeling excited but pressurized now. this time we'll hav to achieve something bigger((: i noe we can((: c'mon guys we'll make it ok. let's not disappoint frankie((:

i think for a jc student to survive, we need 48hrs/day, 14day/week, everlasting enthusiasm, neverending supply of energy. cos its really a very very busy being a jc student. sometimes i find alot of enthusiasm in studying but just not enough time.

previously participated in the school's 3.2km road run and im so happy with myself. i thought i couldn't make it but im really glad i didnt give up halfway during the run. im also very happy with my timing hee.

alright, the rest will be photos. cant find much to say now hah.

justina bought me this 1.5 litre green tea the other day and made me carry it the whole day!

a crazy bunch of neverending laughing freaks.

my blue toe. heh.

taken with frankie. he kept saying we look like siblings in this picture cos we look alike.

from left: samantha, me, justina

right bottom: kyna

left bottom: sarah tam

photos taken using sarah's computer.

stupid lloyd doing dumb poses dunno for wad. lol

stupid ohan trying to disfigure herself infront of the camera in the library. her full-screen picture can be quite scary haha.

2008-03-14T01:38:00.003+08:00

today's training is so fun!
although we didnt really do much but we had fun with the mudd hahaha.
after training when the girls are allowed to go, some of us wanted to stay and play more.
but while waiting for frankie to call us in to play, we practised abit of passing and then, we played with the mudd!
i guess it started from me. hahaha.
cos i purposely jump and step hard at the flooded part of the field and splashed muddy water at ohan they all.
and then they start to splash muddy water around.
den at the track they wan to pull me to the muddy water then i quickly sit down on the track but they hold me by my hands and legs and threw me into the muddy water!
haha after that all of us took turns to be thrown in.
really had fun today with the MUDD. haha
guys, u really bring me fun everyday((:

frankie signed us up for a touch rugby tournament at singapore poly this coming sunday and on that day we'll play ard 15 games haha and the whole tournament will last from morning till late afternoon.
i think we'll play like shit haha but frankie say its for us to learn.
so yeaps, quit excited!
just hoping that the field will not be flooded like today.
cos its very difficult to run fast in the muddy field haha.
anyway i slipped and fell twice on the field today hahaha.
and its once on my left and once on my right. hahaha

i realised theres alot of haha in my blog entry. but thats good new isnt it? haha

justina and sheralin cant stand together!
they're like match stick and fuel.
if just happen that somebody said a joke ( even if its not a funny joke ), then its going to be hell.
hahaha one of them will start luffing and it became.. unstopppable hahahaha.
sumore justina's laughter is so damm contagious la!
hahaha for the first 5 second u may be luffing at the joke but after 5 sec u'll realised that u're actually luffing at her laughter hahaha.

frankie brought me and mervin to cut hair today at his fren's shop.
cost me 20 bucks. but i think its not too bad.
just that my hair become thin again haha.

frankie went bonkers just now in the car haha.
so funny he turn on the music so loud and then start doing funny actions.
made me and mervin laugh!
he look like a little kid when he do all that la haha.
but well, its quite entertaining hahaha.

ok actually i planned to stay up late to finish my hw today but i think im really too tired for that.
i need to sleep!
saturday going to help out frankie abt the nike stall thingy and i'll get to buy stuff at 40 % discount! hahaha so good right((:

alright goodnight, my frens. im going to sleep till 2pm in the afternoon tml haha!

2008-03-13T00:56:00.003+08:00

ok, today's rain is as heavy as ytd.
Frankie came late today so we have to do warm-up and passing first.
haha, but Frankie say if the red light lightning signal did not light up, we'll have to cont training in the rain.
so yeaps, all of us did wad he said.
we trained in the rain hahaha.
had so much fun can!
haha, ran around the track in the rain and then while doing passing, the rain sort of stopped.
then shi jia came late, so she'll have to run ard the track by herself.
but after her first round, it started to rain.
so i ran with her.
den halfway thru the 2nd round, i saw ohan coming from behind and tanty coming from the front.
den when we run past where everyone else is( passing the ball ), ohan called out to ask everyone to join us in the run.
so all of us completed the last round round the track together IN the rain.
haha and the rain is quite heavy!
so.. everyone is TOTALLY drenched in the rain haha.
so since we're drenched in the rain, we decided to just get onto the flooded field.
but we took some time to decide wad to do on the field. so while some of us discuss wad to do, others are like playing with the water la.
and i warn u, its muddy water.
we're like kicking at the water, some guys rolling in the water, splashing water at each other and all hahahaha.
in the end we decided that the rain is too big so we went back to the grandstand and did some physical conditioning.
by the time we finish them, frankie came already.
since he disllocated his arm, he couldnt really coach us, he can only verbally teach the newbies abt the game and all.
and frankie refused to go on the field cos its still raining and he didnt wear tights under his shorts today even though the red light is not on.
so training ended early and all of us headed to causeway point to check out the boots size and some of us had dinner there and all.

today may be a bad day, cos the rain was too bid and we cant have much training.
but today, the run in the rain made me feel that i really have a team there.
They are my teammates and this is my team.
even though some of them are still new but i really feel that all of us belong to this team. this one big ruggers family((:

the field, the field, the field's on fire
we're the coolest, we're the ruggers
aei....
RUGGERS((:

i guess i've probably been too involved in my new jc's stuff and friends that somehow i've drifted from my sec skoo frens.
i dunno, maybe i feel more loved at my new jc?
like wad ohan says. she say im very well loved there haha.
my best fren say if i wan my new life, i'll have to give up the old one and move on.
he said that the new life and old life cant mix.
he said that it irritated him when i tried to pull innova ppl together with jss ppl.
well, i understand. haha
but i tried to pull both together becos i thought u all will be able to share my happiness.
i really felt alot happier there to be honest.
not that i dun feel happy with my old frens.
but since i have new frens there,i can start everything anew.
people dun look at me and link it to my past.
they dun see me as the emo gal who thinks alot everyday.
they get to noe the new me and they brought out the real me which i've lost 2 years ago.
with all these in mind, i selfishly thought that if my old frens get to noe them, it might make my old frens happier( cos they dun seem happy recently).
but perhaps i didnt think deep enough.
didnt realised that it irritated them.
didnt realised that it wouldnt make them happier.
so, i apologise here. to all.
i still love you guys alright((:

2008-03-11T21:55:00.004+08:00

WOW I DUNNO HOW LONG HAVE IT BEEN EVER SINCE I LAST TOUCH THIS BLOG! HAHAHA COS IT LOOKED DUSTY AND OLD AND DESERTED.

ok recently have been very very busy with touch rugby training, studies and frens so became more and more lazy to blogg and use msn.

touch rugby is getting more and more fun but now i guess the prob is with the shoes.

we havent got our boots yet but will be gettin a pair soon.

so for the past few trg when it rained, and the field is muddy, our shoes suffer.

nono, i think our feet suffer more.

esp when i dun have extra shoes and the next day i stil have to wear back that wet and disgusting shoe to school.

really feels yucky! imagine having to wear the wet wet shoe since morning all the way till night.

and by the time i get home, the skin of my feet would be all crumpled le.

den my soles will feel slimy, like fungi growing on it.

so i'll wash and wash a few times till i feel better hahaha.

and today the field is like flooded.

sarah says it looked like an island hahaha.

well, with this pic i dun dare to say wad will it be like tml.

i hope it doesnt rain tml.

but anyway even if it doesnt, i bet the field will be damm wet.

i can already feel the cool water slowly seep into my shoes, soaking my socks the moment i step onto the field.

haha well, nvm i'll be bringing slippers anyway and i'll definitely rmb to bring extra shirt and shorts to change.

today just took chem test and i think im going to flunk it.

i got so many doubts la.

nvm i'll clear all the doubts soon.

im coping quite well with other subs, atleast im quite interested in other subs.

joined frankie they all to play touch last sat with their church ppl.

had alot of fun.

but i fell dumb-ly a few times.

i think i'll get used to falling down soon haha.

finally going to cut hair on thurs, dumb frankie promised me for so long but always dont have the time to bring me there to cut.

ok i cant blame him, hes a busy man.

ok here's some photos taken previously.

i dunno when did this crazy gal come into my life, and i dunno when will she be leaving.

maybe soon? this year?

but anyway this crazy gal really brightens up everyday.

her craziness influenced me, making me as crazy as her now.

her cheerfullness motivated me, telling me that no matter wad happens, a smile will settle everything for you.

its an unspoken lesson from her, teaching me that smiles will always bring you frens, will always keep you going, will always keep ppl around you happy, will always encourage people, wil always beat the sadness, will always clear the dark clouds.

i may not have known her for years and in fact i've known her for barely 3, 4 months yet it feels like she'll be my another best fren forever.

shes much more matured than me, always thinking more than i do.

shes always teaching stuff like how to make decisions cos im a very indecisive person haha and to be careful of everyone, not to trust anyone totally.

and she always say im very simple-minded haha guess i really am cos alot of ppl also say im very gong gong, gullible and all.

but really OHAN, thanks so much for teaching me.

i noe theres quite a high chance that you'll leave this year, maybe not so soon but if u really leave, noe that i'll always remember you as one of my best friend((: i love you ohan

and sheralin, thanks so much for all the smiles and laughter.

u also somehow taught me that being happy is very easy, just laugh ur head off.

haha((: i love you sheralin

ok this pic is taken outside my grandma hse cos they're laying the flood with cement so they made a bridge haha look so funny right. crossing a bridge to get home from the lift which is abt 10 steps away haha.

ok i have nothign much to add le.

shall update again soon, i guess haha((:

2008-01-27T23:02:00.000+08:00

WED

touch rug again and physical again.
but this time we didnt run out of skoo like the other time.
we jogged for quite long den did some physical stuff like lunges, high knees, back kick( whereby u're supposed to kick ur butt and this made one side of my butt hurt) and duck walk.
ok the next 2 days my thigh was in pain! haha.
but it really tonned up my flabby muscles.
and i realised that my tummy also got abit tonned le.
a little bit only la but im happy with that le haha.

THURS

result released!
got 13 for L1R5.
really got the shock of my life mann.
that was my dream score and till now i still think i dun deserve that score.
i think its becos of the drop in national level or wad den i can get that score.
i was expecting 17,18.
ok nvm the next problem to face is which JC shud i choose.
i really love innova but my family membs and frens all wan me go JJ.

mr lee came back to jurong to see us get our result!
but i wonder when will we see him again after chinese new year.
cos he went to other skoos le den we cant visit him often le.
so after getting our result we went to the canteen and mr lee treat us to drinks.
mr lee was soon surrounded by all the sec 3s. haha
so after that we went to the hall and played vball for awhile.
ms ong say i grow tall le!
haha im so happy.
but maybe its just illusion.
i dun think i'll still grow any taller.
maybe its becos of all the joggings.
ok anyway after playing vball they all went home but i still went back woodlands to play touch rug haha.
when i reach the skoo its alredy 6 plus or 7 plus le.
i ran all the way from the MRt station back ok.
got honked by 2 cars on the road haha.
but i dun care i want to play touch rug so i ran all the way back.
den after playing for awhile me, yensen, oy yi and sheralin went to the pasamalam near the mrt den we had dinner there haha,
but its not realy dinner la yensen had burger den oy yi had dunno wad potato thingy den i and sheralin had sausage.
oy yi so funny she has never been to pasamalam den she like so facinated by some of the stuff there and she thought the pasamalam will be there forever hahaha.
ok so we had fun and then sheralin wanted to buy mac for her sis and mum so we went in to causeway pt mall.
den we met 2 ah beng den one of them called for me.
i just ignore and run.. haha
den one of them follow sia.
den he ask me for my number den i say i got BF le.
den he went away but when we left causeway pt dunno why they pop out from behind again den i dash into the train.
sheralin so ke lian she alone den the ah beng like wanna ask her something so she ran up the bus lol.
the ah beng so scary la he got tattoo on his whole hand so disgusting luckily i dun live at woodlands haha.

to be continued....

2008-01-21T18:28:00.000+08:00

i have been running so much for the past one weekkkk..

MON

went to gym with lifen.
ran on the treadmill for 20 min and then slow walk on the treadmill for another 20 min thats all.
haha like nv cut any fats at all.
after that we still go to a nearby market to eat their dessert there.
its like putting all the calories we've lost back.
but the dessert is really quite tasty la.
called HONG CHA BING!

TUE

supposed to have physical conditioning during pe but we prayed hard and it rained!
if not we'll have to run like 5 rounds round the track.
so we played games instead and then we did a little bit of station games but due to time constraint we only did a little.
during the station games ofcos must run la so i ran again that day.

WED

my first touch rug official trg.
and its physical conditioning as well and so we have to run again.
this time we run quite a lot.
though its just jogging but we almost jogged to RP from innova.
but becos halfway thru, some of them cannot take it le so we jogged back halfway.
during the jogging we will like do some passing of the rugby balls.
and so, i ran again.

THURS

today got PE again.
though nv run much but we played badminton.
quite fun.
but still got exercise right.
den after skoo got touch rug again.
so my conclusion is, im so sporty. lol

FRIDAY

finally no exercise.

SATURDAY

cant find anyone to shop with me for new year clothes after work.
slept from 3pm to 8pm.

SUNDAY

work again its so damm tiring.

TODAY

during lesson suddenly my fren received a msg from his tcher saying that the o lvls result will be released this thursday.
den another fren received a msg from another fren who is in the canteen saying that the result will be released this thurs cos maybe that fren saw the news on channel newsasia on the tv in the canteen.
so the whole class cant concentrate for the rest of the lesson.
everyone was thinking abt the results haha.
after skoo our whole class those who are free went to pizza hut tgh.
had so much fun there cos one half of us is like luffing non-stop there.
after that we walk ard causeway point for awhile then everyone headed back home le.
i still have to go cityhall to collect the stupid voucher.
ok tml still got PE at ard 3 plus( so late right )
den tml is physical conditioning again.
hope that it rains again tml haha(:

2008-01-11T15:05:00.000+08:00

went for touch rug training ytd.
it was damm fun!
at first i tot touch rug is a game which is very touch and u'll get mud all over u by the end of the game.
but it was not true!
for me i think touch rug is all about tapping on the shoulder, passing and running. yeaps have ta run quite alot and must be fast.
mud is inevitable but i think if u really like the sport, getting dirty is part of the fun too.
but ytd we didnt have boots so we have to be careful not to step on those real muddy patches.
i love this game mann!
thanks to sarah, my so-call sister for introducing me to touch rug.
although i most prob wont be staying in that skoo but i will still miss you de, sarah(:

i feel so happy starting from my bdae.
i dunno why but it seems like my wishes are coming true..
hope all the wishes will come true alright(((:

today is ur bdae.
hope that all ur wishes'll come true,
and hope that u'll find ur gal soon alright(:

this is my OGL, sarah!
shes damm nice and i love as much as she loves me lol.
she was also the touch rug captain and she intro-ed me to touch rug.

this is another OGL, satish!

and this is my OG, salamas, a part of empire ASSYSIA.

this is nicole! the girl i played with on christmas eve at shenn's hse.

this is my baby cousin, yi ting. so cute right!

I LOVE KIDS MANN HAHA!!

2008-01-07T18:36:00.001+08:00

on the last day of orientation we played amazing race and at night still got jam and hop.
the amazing race still ok, not very fun cos i heard that other skoos went to places like sentosa to play.haha
hmmm..at night still got jam and hop and its damm scary.
cos the hall is like totally dark with only the disco lights shining all over the place and then they have the DJs booming the songs and then theres smoke and everybody was like dancing like crazy on the floor while the tchers watch from the gallery.
some gals dance like crazy gals really like shake untill so disgusting.
but it was fun.
im like running around and around with some of my frens there.
and jump here and there sweating like hell although theres air con.

after jumping for some time we got tired and so me and another OGL just stand at the back watching and luffing at ppl dance cos some ppl really dunno how to dance but they just like anyhow make up dance steps and its realy amusing.

today's lesson so damm boring.
attending lectures and all the lectures like just introducing the subject only.
and i've got 2 and a half hour free today cos after the lecture on process skills i got half hour break they all got literature lecture but i didnt take that sub so dun have to go. so i have one hour free and then after that still got lunch one hour. so altogether i got 2 and half hour free.
during one of the hour i spend the time watching some of my OG frens playing bball.
so boring might as well cut the lunch time and push all the lessons up so we can go home early.

went to meet pengyang in the evening cos he promised me pastamania!
he also passed me my present which is POOH again haha.
and a letter!

really thanks for being my fren for 4 years and best fren for 2 years.
we may not be the kind of close frens who stick together all the time or meet each other up everyday.
but somehow when we meet up, we always have alot of things to say.
and we understood each other's character very well.
although we both have flaws but i dunno why we always managed to see each other's perfection rather than flaws.
i guess thats wad frens really shud be like.
always there no matter wad and always recover without saying sorry after a quarrel and always understanding wad each other needs and always supporting each other no matter wad happens but at the same time giving advice in a straight-forward manner but nv hurting each other.
thanks for always standing by me thru all the difficulties i face.

u taught me wad best frens really shud be like.
best frens shud be the ones who oversees ur flaws and saw the beauty buried deep within.

thanks buddy tan peng yang.
best frens forever(:

2008-01-03T19:43:00.000+08:00

omg its like so long ever since i blogged.
i was too lazy la sorry ah.
anywayy i've got used to my workplace le.
got along well with them all yupp.

18dec, my bdae.
a wonderful bdae!
enjoyed myself so much even though i didnt go out to celebrate.
cos junice,lifen and mingqi came to my hse! haha,
i bought food for them and we sang the bdae song, cut the cake and all.
i really felt very happy thanks my dearest of dearest friends!

24dec, christmas eve.
went to shenn's hse to countdown.
omg her hse was big and beautiful! haha.
the bbq was nice too.
her bedroom also quite nice.
i played with a little 3 yrs old gal called nicole for the whole night.
she was damm cute cann!!
she just kept luffing and luffing.
and shes chubby haha.
anyway in the end we didnt countdown at all cos some of us were in shenn's room playing while some others bbq-ing.
but we had gift-exchange after that.

31dec,new year eve.
went out with my parents to shop for new furniture.
bought new dinner table, bed for my sis and me, cupboard.
all of them besides the dinner table are chosen by me and they will come this sat! haha
countdown at home.
but i dun feel bored that im counting down at home i also dunno why this year dun have any special mood for countdown.
just feel that its like any other day.
no difference.

1jan,new year!
went to work cos the pay is at 9 bucks for an hour and im working untill 3!
which means by just working for 7 hour, i've earned 58.5 ( minus the break time)

2jan,skoo starts.
went to the 1st one month.
i thought it would be so damm boring cos im the only one from jurong and its like i dun really noe how to go there untill i saw a gal who looks like shes going for the 1st one month.
so i asked her if i can go with her and she said yes.
luckily sia, i waited for the 900A for dunno how long but it never came.
i almost turned back and went home.
den when i reach the skoo that principal talked for one whole hour without the use of any slides or notes or wadeva.
she just keep talking and talking non-stop and the way she talk is like so exaggerating.
and then the orientation starts and after playing some games during the ice-breaker period, i got to noe all their names and talk to some of them.
got to noe a malay gal from tanjong katong sec called azara(if i spelled correctly)
and then we have the stations game and soon i got to noe almost all of them haha.
even the guys, well for ur info there is only 5 guys in our group.

one of the games is to cross the rafia string from the top without touching the string too much.
and the height of the string is about my neck there lidat.
so the guys allow the gals to climb over by stepping on their legs all these.
but it wasnt very successful so when it came to my turn, they changed to carrying.
so 2 gals and 2 guys will line up 2-by-2 and then i will lie on their arms while they carry me over the string.
and then a very funny thing happen.
i dunno why when i went over the string i was supposed to jump but instead i dunno why a guy just like carry me down instead den damm funny cos he doesnt seem to have alot of strength haha.
but ok la hes quite good-looking, plays soccer, quite tann and all.
But, dun be mistaken, im not interested in him haha.

that skoo got some shuai ges actually.
chiobus like not much.
anyway all the OGLs are damm enthu!
all of them even the guys also like very daring when doing all the actions all these.
even those guniang guniang actions they also just do it out like nobody cares haha.
but its damm fun.

im also damm enthu.
even the leaders also say that haha.
but its good to be enthu right, cos its more fun when playing the games and all.

today played the warfare.
they will tie rafia string around the chairs to create something like a territory and then our towers will be placed within the boundaries.
our whole empire will be divided into 2 groups to play 2 shift and then each group will be divided again den some will attack other pl's tower from outside the boundaries using water bomb while the rest defended by holding hands and forming like a protective layer outside the rafia string.
so i was one of the defending one and my leader said i played well haha.
she also said she like me very much cos i very enthu lol.

but well, i dared to be enthu becos the whole skoo only got me from jurong.
everyone else doesnt noe me at all thats why haha.
im so looking forward to tml!
cos we'll be playing the amazing race outside the skoo haha.
i think it will be extremely fun!

after this orientation im starting to consider JC le haha(:

2007-12-13T19:25:00.000+08:00

yesterday jasmine and i prayed hard for sunshine and today we really got it.
but...its was too hot haha.
while we're working it was shining bright outside and supposedly it shud be cooling inside but today it was quite hot.
stupid right.
today's work was abit slack, not that busy.
wait for jas and then collect pay and then went to town.
jasmine wanted to buy mango basic tee.
but becos it was on 50% sale, all of us went in as well.
before we go in our bags still have to be tied using a plastic stuff ppl used to cut the grass.
this is to ensure that our things will not be stolen by pickpockets while we're shopping.
it was a good idea cos we really can shop without giving a care abt the bag and all.
bought 1 basic tee, 1 shirt and 1 long-sleeved basic tee. end up spending 49 bucks; lol.
i feel that my Creative zen is getting further and further away from me haha.
supposed to have 142 bucks after collecting the pay today but now end up having only 92bucks.
but the clothes really very tempting la...
haha though its abit squeezy inside but its all worth it haha.

i wan to watch WARLORDS!
i wan no sunshine no rain tml! give me cloudy day!!
i dun wan to work as coffee tea tml, i wan be runner!
i wan to buy my Creative Zen by next monday!

perhaps its all for me.
but have u ever realise wad i wanted the most?
and have u realised that all these meant taking the things i wanted the most away from me?

2007-12-12T19:50:00.000+08:00

so many days didnt blog cos i've been busy working.
working is so good.
when u work, u focus.
when u work, u have to SMILE so there'll be no frowns.
when u work, u meet more frens.
when u work, u get MONEY.
hahaha....
i've decided! to buy.... CREATIVE ZEN!!
haha its so beautiful cann.
to view this beautiful mp3, click the link below.
http://us.creative.com/products/product.asp?category=213&subcategory=214&product=16999
im getting nearer and nearer to my target hahaha.
already got aroung 130 plus le.
its going to reach 199 soon! hahaha jiayou work hard!!

monday.
had a sumptuous meal at orchard hotel.
cos our tuition tcher treat us to buffet.
but strictly those with 12 receipts only.
those who dun have cannot go. lol so stingy
and they really went to the extend to count those receipts and keep them all in a plastic bag and take home lol.
but the buffet quite nice.
got my favourite sushi, sashimi and more.
jas and me end up carrying a big belly home lol.

i cant sleep on monday.

dunno why just cant sleep.

end up sleeping for 3 hrs den still got work lol.

will die mann...

but nvm honestly i like my work.

haha maybe becos i can smile like idiot for the whole day.

smiling is definitely a good way to keep u a little happy.

today.

worked till 3 today.

had lunch infront of terrence haha so funny.

cos no space le so no choice but before he left i said bye and then he winked at me.

so funny sia.

jasmine worked till 12 only so she left first.

so me, nadira and swar lin at there fold napkin and slot cutlery, wipe cutlery in the back lane.

but today so lucky sia cos the napkin came to late.

it came just at the time when we're about to leave.

at first they offered us OT to stay and fold finish the napkin.

but we're too tired so faster sneak away.

chatted with nadira and had fun with stanley and the rest.

stanley so funny he imitated thiba infront of her.

cos i was playing with the iron curtain den he purposely imitate her say hey dun play with it later i tell terrence. u dun go u dun go i go tell terrence now.

den thiba act nv hear anything lidat.

tml i wonder which station will i be stationed at.

pray hard not aravin that station.

whichever station also good just not his station,

hes such a bully haha

ok lets hope tml will be a better day!!

2007-12-02T20:14:00.000+08:00

went out with mingqi to sign the card at jasmine's work there but the human resource department did not open so i ended up shopping with mingqi and her sis.
on the way we saw these ppl wearing those funny clothes and shouting a slogan as they walk.
damm funny! they look like they just came out of the time machine haha.

and then we saw wilbur pan wei bo at ngee an city.

2007-11-30T12:00:00.000+08:00

yea im back from thailand!
a part of me misses thailand but a part of me feels so happy that im back in singapore!
thailand there now quite cold cos its new year end le thats why.
but i like that kind of weather! haha cos its sunny but still cooling.

i miss singapore becos the air at thailand is very dusty and dry.
alot of ppl got sore throat, ulcers and most of us's lips cracked, damm painful!
lifen u're sick so must take care ok(:

but mainly i love thailand!
all the things there are cheap cheap cheap !!
especially the clothes!
i bought so much clothes can!
haha some clothes are selling at 100 baht each, some 79 baht each and if u convert to sing dollars they're all around 4 plus, 5 plus sing dollars! damm cheap!
i really regret buying clothes at singapore lor haha.
all those clothes in singapore are usually sold at around 13, 15 lidat.
even the shorts there are also selling at around 100 baht lidat.
haha this time really fulfilled our shopping crave!
i really feel like going back to thailand again! hahaha...
sumore this time we got more time to shop as compared to m'sia trip!
this trip is really better than m'sia trip sia..

honestly this is my first time boarding the plane haha.
sound so omg but its true haha.
but not only me ok, still got other frens also haha.
when we're boarding the plane to go to thailand i sat beside the window.
though it was in the night but the view was nice!
when the plane was just above the clouds the view was so beautiful, like fake one.
cos the clouds are like carpets, laid below the plane and then there was the moon there shinning onto those clouds. haha
i never saw such bright moon before haha.
den when it was about to reach bangkok, i can see the moon being reflected by all the rivers, houses below haha look so fake but beautiful! haha.

when we're boarding plane back to singapore it was still in the day den can see the beautiful scene abit like sunset lidat but this time im not sitting beside the window so cannot really see the view clearly.
but its so nice!
i love the plane!

on our first night i cannot sleep at all cos maybe not used to it yet ba.
den at first is 2 person share one room but becos we're scared so in the end become 4 person share one room.

on the last day we went to the dream world theme park.
played almost all the things there. quite fun not too scary.
i like the last thing we played, call hurricane
it was damm fun cos its not really very scary, just very high.

the people there quite courteous.
when we asked a passer-by to help us take a picture he still wait untill we see the picture den we say ok liao den he leave leh.
so nice right.haha

the people there are so disciplined, when they are boardind the train they will all queue up in straight lines before entering the train, unlike singaporeans always so kiasu at there squeeze haha.

the air is vey dusty there...

this match was like a very serious match haha.
cos that school prepare untill like they're playing for the nationals championship.
but the school de students all so supportive!!
like if their school de team score, they will all scream damm loud esp the girls haha.
and everyone cheer so loudly for their school de team unlike singapore de schools all not very enthu de.

toilet.

their toilets are so different from ours.

u flush by just pouring water into that toilet and the toilet look so simple.

all these are bought within the 150 sing dollars i brought to thailand.

and the things i bought includes food and souvenir.

haha I LOVE THAILAND TRIP!

more photos to come...

2007-11-25T20:41:00.001+08:00

yea im going thailang today! will be back on the 29th.
this time going with teammates again!
i love my teammates!!
haha hope its a wonderful trip.
everyone miss me alright haha.

ms J.

mr nur.

afik.

andy wee.

peng yang.

shawn.

pinkoon.

serita.

ain.

yi chao.

don.

stupid jiaqian.

karthick.

julian.

fatimah.

stella.

daphne.

zi xin.

zhi hao.

ms ong.

ryan.

veronica.

yee ping.

demello.

kenny.

jieting.

delphine.

aisyah.

ayleen.

zhengjie.

randy.

kenghuat.

bball team.

wanlin.

hmmm..forgot her name le. haha

jeanne.

mr lee kok leong.

zhimei.

zhiwen.

elton.

shenn.

shih chiang.

shawn.

mingqi and jasmine.

yusof.

iraimi.

zhen quan.

jing tong.

jonah.

mervin.

ian.

andy.

yonghao.

yusof and irami.

mingqi.

lifen. bestie.

shuyu.

gary.

timothy.

badly missed..

randoms!

2007-11-22T11:38:00.000+08:00

omg its been like million and billions of years since i've touched this blog haha.
the last entry was july. LOL!
ok i admit i was lazy.
haha even in the holidays im lazy to fix my blog.
cos its so troublesome! have to change blogskin and all...
but now im amazed i can get it done within half an hour hahaha im so impressed by myself.
ok enough of self-praising. haha

so much so much things happened during the days when im not blogging.
but well, i dun think i wan to name it all out.
haha just throw all those stuff away ba.
been constantly going out for the past 2 weeks haha
but until now only went to work once.
cos im now working in amara hotel de restaurant de banquet den sometimes dun have much events so its like they got quite alot of staf also, so we didnt get much job.

yea next mon im off to thailand with my teammates!! haha
though its really a short holiday but i'll be boarding plane with them!
haha im so excited abt the plane, but not abt the trip hahahaha.. wel, simply bcos other skoos are going even better places. nvm we cant blame, we dun have money.hahaha
ok i think im abit over high.

ytd chat with shawn in msn.
i almost fainted haha.
his zombie-phobia is really getting out of hand.
hes like really crazy lol!
but honestly i think i will nv believe that zombie exists hha.
even if they do, i think i wont be in our era ba.
too impossible hahaa. i bet if shawn saw wad i was saying here he wil tagg and say zombie do exist in caplocks haha.

i bought harvainas ytd!
went cityhall and then cineleisure then heeren.
in the end finally bought the light blue harvainas at heeren,
haha we even tried to ask for discount.
in the end one of them have the poly card so they used that den i have discount le!
new urban male de guys always so handsome one sia. haha
the best place to treat ur eyes to ice cream!
hahaha.. im so hua chi now..
ok enough of blogging.
if not i think this blog will be damm damm long haha..

2007-07-30T21:10:00.001+08:00

why leave those words there?
as if i did something wrong.
i dont think so right?
if i did why didnt u correct me?
its was you who did not want to reply my msg and reject my call.
it was you who kept opposing me in class.
i dun mind u scolding me when i talk in class unnecessarily.
but u just want to oppose me with every chance you have isnt it?
i didnt do anything to you right?

you are just like that.
when people make you slightly unhappy or go against your wish, you threw all the blame at that person.
i want to ask you whether you have ever put urself in other ppl's shoe?
have you tried to feel what others feel?
sometimes i feel so tired being ur fren.
not becos i always have to listen to ur grudge or tolerate ur bad temper but becos you always suddenly emo lidat.
den happy jiu answer the call, not happy jiu can show attitude, dont answer the call.

im telling you now.
if u think that its all my fault( whatever shitty fault i dunno), then just dont hang on la.
i dont think im wrong.
its all just RIDICULOUS!

2007-07-27T14:31:00.000+08:00

havent been using this bloog for dunno how long.
guess the next time im using it will be after prelims ba.
busy preparing for o levels all these days.
but dunno why dont have the mood to study at all.

all my happiness end up sliping away from me.
how i wish i could get a rope and tie them to me forever.
i realised that i tend to lose everything i like.
even stupid stuff like earrings also lidat.
all the earrings that i like either disappear or spoil.
it makes me so fed-up.
and ofcos i've been losing alot more stuff.
its disappearing so quickly and so much, i stopped bothering after awhile.
sad also no use, cry also no use.
when its going, its unstoppable.

2007-07-20T23:21:00.000+08:00

so much so much things to say but lazy to post them out.
anyway, i just went to the doctor for my gums.
cos got a small lump grow out there.
that doctor also dunno what is it.
he gave me anti-biotic and cream for the lump and tell me to wait for 5 days and see.
if still haven cure den go see dentist.for a moment i hope its cancer or something that can kill me.

it like blended ice with orange peel.
i hope time flies.

i noe im a very sensitive person lol.
but i guess thats becos im afraid of losing.
im not a very adapting person.
im not the kind that loses here and can easily get it somewhere else.
im afraid of being left behind.
im afraid of being thrown aside or being not needed by anyone else.
maybe this is a selfish thinking, i duno.
i dont wan to leave this skoo without being missed by anyone.

i tried to save this part and im starting to lose the other.
i wanted to save both but thats not possible.
im not the sociable kind.
not the kind who can easily find topics to talk about.
not the kind who can easily make everyone happy.
not the kind who can easily join in and play with everyone.

im not that kind.
i want to be part of everything.
im greedy.
so so so greedy.
i dun wan to lose.
im not capable of being so generous.

maybe im thinking too much, but i already said, im a sensitive person(:

2007-07-01T20:02:00.000+08:00

2007-06-27T22:29:00.000+08:00

everyday is a brand new happy day for me.
i dunno why but since the start of school reopen im feeling high everyday.
letting go is so good
every night, no dreams.
my brain can finally rest very well.
every day study but i don't know why, im enjoying it.
from the moment i start doing the maths qns i can't stop.
though those qn is still driving me mad.

tuition-ed today.
so sad cannot go with mingqi and lifen to holland-village to buy clothes.
but its ok, o level is more important.
im looking forward to the end of o levels when we can play like crazy.
with no worries, no restrictions, no stress anymore.
i want shopping, go work, buy many many stuff.
and after o levels this big event, the next big event will be my bdae! 18 dec hahaha.
though still quite long but im already very excited.
i hope it will be the happiest day ever.
cos its probably the last time i celebrate with all my frens.

jiayou! must study hard now.
i want to reach my target! 14 and below by o levels(:

2007-06-26T22:34:00.000+08:00

today- photo-taking and training(:

with yixuan(:

junice chong!

went back training today cos today got phototaking then after that stayed back and played match with them.

so long nv play match with them le.

for a moment, O levels seems like fake one.

it all feels like we're still going to have trainings and all.

i miss them so much.

had so much fun today(:

after training they all at there play piggy back.

so funny they kept falling then the way they fall is fall forward then damm funny.

video-ed it down.

its really fun to play with them.

loves lot(:

knee bruised during match.
though its painful but its fun and im happy(:

i'll miss this and them and every single thing.

and i'll definitely! remember every single thing.
I LOVE YOU GUYS LIKE MAD((:

sunday- watched movie with my aunt,sis and cousin at town.

went pastamania(:

spinach tortellini

after pastamania, went shopped ard and watched the movie ' nancy drew'.

its quite nice though its not very attractive before i watch it.

funny and intelligent movie.

my cookie monster mudpie!

NY cheesecake((:

jetster mudpie(:

this is iced mocha elephino. dunno got spell wrong anot.

but anyway its HUGE. haha,drink dao going vomit le.

me and my sister.

saturday- family day(:

went bugis with my parents and my sis.

bought these stuff.

fun day(:

friday- 4/3 BBQ at taman jurong greens.

im so hungry i wan to eat the charcoal liao.

we had a hard time starting the fire.

this is Kc's feet. look at the plaster. damm cute right?

fun day! bbq and all. played with mervin's dog brandy.

that doggy's smelly but cute hahaha.

stupid mervin nv tk good care of the dog!

mr lee also came. he so good that day, help us with the fire and cook the food.

angela's PURPLE tapioca.lol.

2007-06-21T19:42:00.000+08:00

im perfect.
perfectly bored.
and feeling so sleepy, yet cant sleep.
holiday homework burying me mann.
save me!

from the start of anyone's life, they start to lose more than they gain.
as we grow, we loses innocence, smiles, cries and many many stuff.
kids have the most special smile in the world.
something that no one can paste it there of take it away.
just little stuff can make them smile.
and when i say smile, i mean smiling from the heart.
kids have the most special kind of cries too.
they cry becos they couldnt get wad they wan or when they wan something.
but after crying they forgot all abt it.
they wont feel really sad at all.
just cry and forget.
kids have the kind of innocence no adult will possess.
the you-ask-me-i-dunno kind of face and answer.
how many can stil have that kind of smile, that kind of cry, that kind of innocence.

humans become hypocrites as they grow.
ok, not that serious but everyone cares more and more abt their image and all right?
when u're eating an ice-cream and the ice-cream stained onto ur clothes or dirtied ur face, would you continue eating and hack care everything? no right?
for kids, ice cream is more impt that everything else.
their mindset is so simple and innocent that it makes them look cute.
the way they treasure their ice creams is something we cant fight.
as they grow, they stop treasuring everything that much.

maybe knowledge is the killer.
turns everyone into performers.
giving them beautiful dresses and colourful mask.
build them a stage and let them perform.
in the end everyone tries to hide their real self, and trying to turn themselves into people whom they think are perfect.

maybe opinions is another killer.
forces people to change, killing everyone's innocence and cute.
making everyone look the same and lost their unique.

haiz..life's so crazy and confusing.
so many so many stuff, making people all look so scary.

2007-06-20T22:15:00.000+08:00

i don't know how to say. i just hate it. hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it to the core!
i've been asking myself to stop but i just couldn't. i hate it!

Humans are like this, when the make a mistake, they do everything to make up.
but humans are also like this, when someone make a mistake and offended them, they'll think alot before forgiving.

humans always do things that are bias to themselves.
everyone's selfish, nobody will like the feeling of losing out, therefore they try their best to make sure that they will get what they deserve.
however, everyone forgot to put themselves in other's shoes.
they forgot to stand in the offender's situation and try to understand.

in this world, everyone wants to be understood by everyone.
in the end everyone are waiting for people to understand them and then nobody understands nobody.

humans don't help humans anymore when they are in probs.
everyone wants things from others and forgot that others might have their probs too.
this world lacked understanding and in the end more problems arise.

a mistake can kill thousands of good deeds.
many things have choices.
sometimes, a choice chosen wrongly will change everything.
but people don't understand why that person made the choice.
and usually, one wrong choice will destroy every single thing.
all these happen becos humans dont give enough chance.
human only think about themselves.
once they get the right ' sleeping position ', they continue ' sleeping ' are stop bothering abt other people.
humans are simply selfish.

i did not say this becos im really unhappy the whole world but becos i noe some of these are my mistakes too. jus wan to blog it out.

2007-06-19T16:20:00.000+08:00

happy people are selfish people.
selfish people can become greedy people.
eventually, these people may become heartless people.
they are selfish because they look at everyone with a happier view and thus unable to understand people's situation.
they become greedy becos they will slowly do things to make only themselves happy.
they slowly become heartless when they didnt want to care abt others anymore.

sad people are scared and helpful people.
they are scared of slowly becoming even sadder people.
they are helpful becos they can see other sad people and then they'l try to help.
however, they may slowly evolve into the next kind; angry people.

angry people are killers.
they kill their natural kind self and killed concerns from other people.
they view things at an evil view, always plotting to destroy.
they usually become this after long period of sadness and not being able to find ans or solutions to their sadness.
these people are pushed by people and things to this point.

everyone can fall into any of the first 2 category but never touch the 3rd.
cos its horrible and scary.
it turns people into monsters; angels to devils.
never push anyone to that category too, cos the next time u wanted to help them, its too late.
these people will slowly become a pest, and almost nobody will be able to save them.

sometimes its just abt the choice you make.
but sometimes its about wad choice others give you.
sometimes people are given many chances.
but sometimes people forgot to give people chances.
and sometimes people missed their chances.

2007-06-17T19:59:00.000+08:00

yesterday((:

finaly can go out with my laopos.

miss them like crazy.

but junice canot come with us):

hmmm..we meet at abt 2 30.

den went to bugis to buy clothes.

bought a black skinny jeans in the end.

went town after that. went cine and bought a shirt at 13.90 only. had pasta after that. creamy chicken! went heeren after that and theres a breakdance competition there. omg those ppl so pro and cool. dance damm well, all the breakdance and all. took abit of video and some pics too.

shopped ard and went fareast. but we all go fareast is really step in jiu come out le. cos dont have money left haha. went pacific plaza and window-shopped for awhile. left town at abt 9. reached home at abt 10. first time go town with them untill so late. cos usually out parents very strict, cannot go out untill too late. so we're all very happy ytd((:
i love my laopos..

on the way to bugis.

while buying my skinny.

at pastamania dinner!

wow this baked rice is so stretchable huh? haha

now, its mingqi's adventure of trying baked rice with addition of tobasco.

this is my cutest friend yeomingqi!

the breakdance competition at heeren.

lifen's idea.

i dont have mingqi's photo with me =X

full-length(:

the black skinny and shirt i bought.

oh its like years before i last posted.

hmmm..have to stay at home for the last week cos my grandma have to go for operation.

but now come back le.

during her stay in the hospital i very worried for her sia.

lucky shes fine now(:

staying at home is boring to hell.

for the whole 2 week i almost nv play dao.

besides goin for tuition and buying breakfast for my sis and myself, i almost nv leave the house at all.

and... boredness can drive someone crazy...and...this is how crazy i am.

look at the pictures.

clouds-mania again(:

this is a lame to the core story.

if u're not feeling bored, dont read it.

hunny and baby are strangers at first.

one day the meet in the streets.

baby accidentally fell.

hunny quickly help him up.

but this situation was seen by baby's boyfriend, sleepy.

they quickly move away from each other.

sleepy was sad.

hunny and baby quickly explain to him but he was just too sad to listen.

baby quickly go over and explain to her boyfriend that they were just strangers.

after much explanation, sleepy believed baby and then they are together again.

pooh! productions(:

damm lame and stupid right. now u can tell how bored i am at home. haha=P

while being bored, i thought of them and i miss them!!

taking out all the memories..

time really flies..

introducing friends at home(:

this is sleepy(:

hunny((:

dino((:

baby

this first pig that can fly. bringing me love and joy((:

ah dong

fatty pooh

rosey

play with nails(:

edit photos in phone(:

play with hair lol((:

end of craziness.

2007-06-08T22:28:00.000+08:00

stayed at home,
so bored!!
sleep alot.
slept from 3 am last night till 12 today.
and then from 4 to 8 just now.
pigg right. oink!
been trying to concentrate and finish up my bio hmwrk but i think im more interested in sleeping.
*yawn*
looking forward to tues cos lover is coming my hse to entertain me hahaha.

this year is the last year and everyone is supposed to be sticked one whole chunk tgh.
but instead i see pieces and parts everywhere.
cmon guys its the last year.
make it memorable alright.
bond up!

really miss last year when the whole class or the whole grp is bonded so well.
and we tot this year will be better after knowing each other for 2 years.
but in the end things got worse.
quarrels and problems arise.
its like the whole grp can just disband le.
this is the last year, wadeva probs should be settled and everyone should treasure the last of our sec life.
i dun wan to regret at the end of the year when im saying goodbyes to all my frens.
hope that everyone will go back to wad we are last year but ofcos with better changes.

2007-06-07T22:38:00.000+08:00

we are supposed to meet 12 15 and we are so punctual!

hahaha guess wad we're planning to do?

yea! swimming!!

after swimming(:

did i get tanner?

ohh..homework and homework!!
hey i made this effect myself ok, not the phone or com function haha pro right?

went swimming with yeoMQ and fishy tan today.
jurong east swimming complex!
this time we tried the red and blue slide, so fun!
but when u're sliding, the air inside is warm one lol.
so played from 12 15 untill 3 den we wash-up and had KFC den leave le.
me and shuyu still got tuition after that.
fun fun fun today.
it hurts all the time,
but im not supposed to.
so i smile and laugh and joke ard.
and i stayed away, stop watching,reading,looking,glancing.
cos..its not a good feeling.
and my mother just told me that this saturday cannot go out.
cos have to look after my sis again.
ahhhhh!!!
im going very crazy soon.
why am i like a criminal?
have to get locked at home.
all the feelings have to get locked in my head and heart.
how i wish i can overturn this world.
shake all the unhappiness out of my world.
i want to be happy too alright.
and its not onlu abt how i look towards all these problems but whether this world gives me a chance to.
i want to be out!
out to play, out of the sadness, out of this world.

a few lines is enough for me.
u dun have to reply long, a short one is enough.
u dun have to look me in the eye, just a glance is enough.
u dun have to miss me, just have things that reminds you of me is enough.

i am happy i am happy i am happy

2007-06-06T21:35:00.001+08:00

saturday went swimming with mingqi!

cos junice, lifen and shuyu all cannot only the 2 of us go.

went to jurong east swimming complex.

woots, dive into the water

have to stay at home for the past few days looking after my sis.

unless i got tuition or else cannot go out.

cos my grandma went malaysia play, untill today den will come back.

next monday my grandma going for operation le..dunnno when den will come back.

hope she'll be fine

but that signifies that next week i cant go out again.

haiz, my holidays are so bored.

ahhh!!!!!! going crazy, going mad!!

the sky today is so pretty! let me post some photos!

on the bus back from tuition.

beautiful sky(: i love.

any rose for me?

socks i wear when i was small((:

ohh study study study concentrate!!

jialin, never say die!

i am so so so happy so so so happy so so so happy so so so happy.
a beautiful sky with beautiful clouds with beautiful sun.
a boring life with a boring holiday with a boring day.

2007-06-01T16:25:00.000+08:00

sick and tired.
blow it all away alright?
leave all these behind.
since it happened den let it be.
i dont wanna care.
dont probe anymore.
i dont wan to talk abt anything.
leave me alone.

let the wind clean that pile of leaves.
those yellowish brown leaves that have just fallen off the tree.
you know its irreversible,
so stop keeping those leaves,
let them fly..
one day they will find a place to stay,
one day they will disappear.
nothing stays forever as it is.
and this phrase can be taken as something to be happy or sad abt.
at the end of the day nobody'll belong to nobody,
everyone's going to be dependent on themselves.
maybe god just let me start earlier.
and maybe this are all the test god's giving me.
whatever it is, things get solved at the end of the day.
i just wan to let it go
i've been holding to too much things and those stuff will only pull me nearer to hell.
if i let it all go, maybe i'll fly to heaven.
call this a form of encouragement or just lies im offering to myself.
but whatever it is, thats all i can say to cheer myself.

last night i dreamt of my aunt offering me pills that can let me die peacefully.
i took it, and regretted it.
but i dunno why,in the end i didnt die.
maybe this dream is trying to warn me not to do stupid stuff.
or maybe im just simply thinking too much.
make you,
thanks pengyang for ur green tea but i really think i shouldnt take it.
break you,
so paiseh everything take u buy de green tea.
save you,
anyway thanks alot for ur green tea, thanks alot for being there to listen to me even though u noe u couldnt help much.
crush you,
thanks for being my fren(:
slashed you.
why dont just kill?

2007-05-31T21:27:00.000+08:00

i wonder at times, how he would think and say abt me.
does he hate?
does he despise?

watching that innocent face of a child.
they are like angels,
so pure and clean.
they hold no grudges, bear no evil intentions
with the ice cream smeared over their cheeks, though they may look dirty and sticky,
but if u stare for a longer period of time, u'll see that they are actually all so cute.
the chubby faces constantly changing with expressions,'
smiles, cries, frowns, anger
i love their emotions mann,
when they dislike, they cry.
and then they forget.
how nice!
maybe thats the kind of emotion i need.

im always so emo always seems so sad.
and i understood everyone's sick of me.
sometimes i thought, am i asking too much from this world?
i merely asked for somebody to accompany me thru all the probs,
i merely asked for a better result,
i merely asked for a talent for myself,
i merely asked for a smile on my face everyday,
and i merely hoped for one of the above.
and i didnt get any.
but now i've found a good buddy.
he might not be the best, he might not have all the good things that a best fren should posess,
he might not give the best advice, i might not be his very best or even a best fren.
but least he is always just a call away.
when i turn rounds and rounds to find no place to go, to find no one to talk to, least he was there.
thanks buddy pengyang(:

this world holds so much selfish and greedy humans and that includes me.
i know myself.
im always thinking abt myself and always asking for more and more.
but thats wad humans are made up of right?
and wad i asked for is not unreasonable, is it?
i just want a simple life and i just want to smile all day.
i dont want anything that would tear my smile.
i hope i'll be able to do it.

2007-05-30T17:38:00.000+08:00

nothing to say abt yesterday.
nothing to say abt today cos today only tuition and nothing left.
stupid hot day.
sweating like a pig!
i think the world is exploding soon..
good mood today.
dunno why.
just feel so light.

i dont give a damm.
i'll just do the same.
fly!

2007-05-28T21:40:00.000+08:00

haha yeap i guess im almost always emo till my frens are all sick of reading the same stuff over and over again.
but just dun worry. i'll be fine if u ppl hack care my for awhile. i'll forget everything the next moment!
my mood is always up and down and up and down like those kallang waves.
this year most imptly is O levels, other things might be impt but well, forget it.
cont thinking abt the same stuff over and over again also no use right.

speak of O levels, today just took O levels chinese.
was so damm scared ytd night. cant sleep sia. haha
but today took the paper that time den found out it was actually not that scary.
i think im taking even more scary papers like science and english den i will really shiver.
haha but nvm i will cont to work hard!
maybe you guys wont see me ard blogger for a few months.
guess after prelims start i wont be blogging untill O levels end le ba.
dun think still got time for all these stuff yea.
this year canot play play le.
must really put in all the effort and give it my best shot.
im not a genius or an As students so cannot slack like they do.
must jiayou!! everyone can make it and so can i!!

went swimming with fishy today haha.
it was a last minute suggestion cos shuyu suddenly have a craving for the waters and off we go!
haha went to her aunt's condo there to swim.
dun have ppl one lor! like the whole swimming pool belongs to us lidat haha.
and i guess we swam abt going 20 laps?
haha dk la.. swim alot jiu dui le.
haha so fun.
she'll be my swimming mate ba!

sorry py.
sorry for not being there for you when u needed me like how u used to be there for me when i needed someone.
noe u are really disappointed and i think today everyone got programme thats why u get so fed-up cos u couldnt find someone to talk to
but i really dunno u wud need me and im swimming half-way ma..
no matter wad, it was my fault for not being able to be there.
but if u're down the next time can still find me.
i'll try to be there whenever i can like u used to.
thanks for always being there too.
u're always able to sense if im feeling well and always be the first one to listen to all my grudges.
thanks alot buddy.
and im very sorry too):

my emotions flows freely like the water in the lakes.
i love to be moody.
i love to be happy.
i love to be sad.
i love to feel nothing.
i love to feel for everything.
maybe thats my priviledge.
sometimes i feel that since i put these words in colours and fonts that are obviously dun wan to let ppl see one, why do they still bother abt wad i write?
but on 2nd thought, i noe becos they care.
hmmm..just dun worry, friends.
everyone should understand that sometimes that is how our emotions rule our actions.
i cant stop myself from being moody or happy or sad.
thats the way i am.
and im already trying my best to not feel that way.
but everytime i look at stuffs and everything just boom out again.
u all must understand me alright.
its not like i've got everything and im still purposely picking out things to say.
im not like every other ppl who have atleast one thing to make them happy.
i have nothing more than those very primary stuff.
and my failure have been getting worse ever since sec 3!
its not easy to maintain my mood and its not like i wan my mood to be this way.
put urself in my shoes!
sometimes i feel like giving myself an award for being the most stupid and unlucky person.
and then i wan to give myself another award for being able to survive till now after being so stupid and unlucky.
life is already not easy to manage and sumore i have to manage this kind of life!
yea i noe everyone have their own problems and its not fair to say i've suffered the most.
thats why i didnt say everyone should care the most for me.
just hope that wad my lover said would come true.
one day i'll find my one.
whether its a fren or a mate.
i'll find mine(:

2007-05-25T14:44:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a boring to hell day.
help them open the cd containing and photos of them at the finals.
sad? yes
anything else to say? no

got back result today.
contented? quite.
good enough? no.
going to work harder? definitely.
disappointed abt any sub? yes, humanities. my result for humans like shit.
where i go after skoo? superbowl.
do wad? eat at shengshiong there. and play abit of bowling and pool.
did anything after that? went home.
anything else to add? no.
bye.

what am i left with? nothing besides my family.
what do i expect? nothing, expectations always disappoints me.
how come? things are just repeating and nobody bother to corrects it.
they always say they'll be there and now i find these words so damm funny.
why did i even use this words, felt so shameful for using these words before.
cos being there isnt just being there when they need you but always being there to share everything.
why let someone get hurt and then u go and heal them?
the wounds still hurts.
why not protect them and not let them get hurt?
everyone is selfish and that isnt wrong cos nobody would wan themselves to get hurt so nobody blames nobody.
but why promise and then break again?
why say u'd be there and leave again?
why take up so much job when u only wan to care for just one person and when u manage all the jobs in the end?
why be so irresponsible?
why cant treat everyone else the same?
why is fairness never by my side?
why let me get hurt?
and why over and over again?

2007-05-23T19:43:00.000+08:00

mr lee say i seow today. stupid mr lee! but ok la i was quite crazy cos i insisted that he must drink green tea hahaha. den when he was still deciding wad to drink i straight away take the green tea and open den he'll have to buy le haha.
but he played vball with me after that. he play vball de pattern so funny lor. like ' big bell ' lidat. cos he too tall den like very bulky lidat haha.

phototaking today with vball gals! but so stupid lor we all take the pics le den that person didnt dwld the photo into the com den in the end our photos all gone. now have to wait untill when skoo reopen then take again cos some of the ppl have gone home. so stupid lor den next time still have to take again so mafan! but that photographer quite professional.

was trying to dry my sanjiao today in class so left it at the window there cos later phototaking need to wear. den stupid mr lee ask the class why the shorts there, made me so paiseh haha. but in the end it didnt dry also.

everything is so so so unfair.
why did they have to strip me of the chance of sitting with them during phototaking?
its like the b gals can sit on the bench with tcher and all but i alone have to stand with the sec 1s and 2s.
its not fair at all to me.
haven i paid enough when i was out of the team?
i cant play with my team, cant get trophies with me team, cant cheer too loudly for my team cos im too far and now i cant even take the last photo with them.
u call this fair?
i thought after leaving vball atleast im already free of all those sadness i have to go through everytime
but in the end i have to go thru it again today.
its really very hurting.
very very hurting.
have anyone been as unlucky and saddening as me?
thinking why didnt i give it all up in the beginning?
holding on to the last bits thinking that its all worth it and in the end lost everything too.
its funny how ' fair ' how god is fair to me.

2007-05-22T16:25:00.000+08:00

Randoms!

we met pan shu qing ytd at jurong point.
she say she nv put make up den will very ugly but shes so pretty lor!

that time watch spiderman total 19 ppl.
the ticket was long long and long!
haven touched a line of tickets as long as this before!

me and my sis.

i love bling bling and flowers.

19may

crystal jade-ed with tan pengyang.

yummp yummy!!

14MAY

we're queuing for donut factory to buy donut for jasmine's bdae.

we queued for 3 hours in total.

sometimes when people are bored, they do stupid stuff

15 MAY-JASMINE BDAE!!

jasmine and weixiang's bdae((:
celebrated at kc hse before going to sentosa.

happy birthday to you all!

hey we queued very long one ok.

weixiang is kenny's brother.

cheese!

me and lover on the way to sentosa! lover's match haha.

both yellow top with fbt shorts and volcom bag!

skyride! behind us.
20 people total 100 bucks for one-way skyride!

infront of us.

beautiful yea?

smiling out of fear. haha

its so high high high!!

its so scary save me!!

me and mingqi on the skyride!

mervin and shih chiang's creation! bear bear. cute hor?

welcome welcome((:

me and my princess darling!

me and fen

me and piang!

me and laogong!
my laogong always betray me go outside have alot of mistress one lor hmph!
but i still love her haha((:

me and fanny

me and mer mer

me and fishy

home sweeeet homee..

2007-05-22T16:03:00.001+08:00

yea, today phototaking! finally can sit with mr lee hahaha. den when taking the fun shot me and lifen squeeze him lidat so funny den we all atfirst wan to hook his arms lidat den he paiseh den wan to walk away lidat. den we all pull him back and keep squeezing him lidat. but he also very think so nvm. very funny lor he sit untill so straight.

this time the photographer so professional lor. he took abt 5 shots for the formal and informal and close-up lor. den its like we all smile untill so tired le. but its good la cos he say it is to make sure nobody closes their eyes.

den after these phototaking still got 4 to 5 persons take photo tgh one. so good lor. but too bad cannot more than 5 person take tgh. i took with lifen, mingqi, jas and fanny. that person snap continuously and very quickly lor. so funny. den we have to smile for v.long again. mr lee bias one lor. he nv take the pics with us one. he took with kenghuat they all only. not fair!

had lunch in skoo after that then jiu go home le.

coughing now dunno why suddenly will have cough. and im so lazy to drink more water haha.

2007-05-21T21:48:00.000+08:00

mr lee nv come today so no phototaking, change to tml.
hope he'll be here tml(: dunno wad happen to him. heard that he applied for a medical leave.
yea phototaking tml i wan to sit with mr lee!! hahaha.

today so funny. we like go school for 2 hr lesson lidat. only got 2 hrs mother tongue in the morning den after that is mr lee and ms tang de lesson but both of them not here so wad we did today is mainly playing the chatek and walking ard in class and chatting. our class like fell in love with the chatek haha((:

recess time rushed down to listen to the CO and the 3 girls sing at the stupid kopitiam thingy there. rachel sang very well for the english song!

played vball after school. so fun! so long nv play untill so crazy le. and it all felt like last time, like noone is going to go, like everyone will still be going trg every tue thurs and fri. well, shant say more, just treasure the rest of the time mann.

tml everyone must tidy their hair nicely cos its the last year le must leave good impression(:

my stupid aunt so stubborn lor. tell her the new com de msn is a diff version den have to dwld another one den she keep insisting no cos she say will have virus all these. stubborn lor. msn also not like baidu or wad those kind of non-official website. msn is like hotmail lidat leh den its like cfm no virus one wad but she just insist no. rrrr! make me so fed-up.

i was right.
im sad.
if anyone didnt wish to hear me say this word again den just turn off the com and sleep.
cos i didnt like to say it either.
well, im not gonna tell anyone who is it so anymore.
cos no point.
things repeating, like a vicious cycle.
smile and then cry and then smile and then cry.
forget it, i can heal myself.
sometimes i think im ready to be independent of everything.
ready to let go of him and every other things that make me sad.
but i noe i cant cos we can nv let go of things untill the day we die.
everything still matters to me for now.
but maybe when we all graduate, i can realy let all these go and find things that really make me happy.
bless me(:

2007-05-20T20:40:00.000+08:00

专辑:play(2007)
s.h.e-老婆
作词:任家萱(selina)
作曲:陈嘉桦(ella)

从昨天到今天
还有明天
感谢老天
让你们陪在我身边

爱的心
痛的心
等待的心
因为你们的拥抱
我很放心

当初见面的不安
彼此的探索
也许有些茫然迷惑

朝夕相处才发现
这世界中
没有人比你们更懂我

朋友姐妹
都已不够来形容
我们的默契骄傲
扶持与包容

老婆老婆
我们一起打勾勾
请记得约定的旅程到永久

this song is dedicated to my beloved vball mates.
2007 VOLLEYBALL B GIRLS ROCKS!
-esp junice, lifen, mingqi, jeanne and shuyu

2007-05-20T20:14:00.000+08:00

went crystal jade wid pengyang ytd. i finally reached the day when i can eat crystal jade noodles haha. waited so long. love the noodles mann. Q Q one haha. and after eating its really so full.

hmmm i think i wan to start studying next week le ba. heard from many ppl they're starting next week so i guess i dun have a reason to slack le. after getting all those disappointing results maybe its time to wake up and study harder. weekends shall be reserved for resting. weekdays no excuse every study!! and pengyang also promised to form study group with me le. and my lover too. i really hope to get better results for my prelims and esp O levels. must jiayou le! esp my humans. dunno wad happened to me to get such stupid result. jiayou ba jialin!

honestly its not that im fussy or wad but i really dun like ppl to tagg without their names. ok if they came with good intentions its alright wid me but when they didnt it really made me very fed-up. i dun understand why they must ' pollute ' ppl's blog with those kind of comments. as if they'll get a hundred bucks for doing that. please la, this is little kid's action can?

smile, my friend.
u'll noe i'll be there.
though not forever, but least for now.
u understand sometimes we didnt wan things that way either.
i dun like to see u sad, dun like to see u cry,
but if u really wan, i can cry with you.
if u wish, i can scream with you.
anything to make you happy, my friend.
just becos u're my friend(:

2007-05-18T23:18:00.000+08:00

im so so energetic now! slept from 2 45 till abt 8 45 just now. 6 hrs! feels like i slept for a whole day.

i need to recommend a movie! the cd jasmine lent me that day " crying out love, in the centre of the world " its so nice! i started crying from the 2nd disc. really very saddening. but maybe that show is quite quiet quiet that kind den some ppl might not like it cos they think its very boring but for me its nice la.

got so much photos to upload for 15 may! but not today.

ytd quite moody i think but today ok le. i think its really our hormones controlling our mood. sometimes little stuff can make me so fed-up but big stuff can throw one side lol.

bestie dun cry le. things will get better ok. ur father will understand one. just study hard the next time((:

i love my darling precious teammates. esp the 6 of us. today just got the song LAOPO sang by SHE from kenny. and i feel like dedicating that song to you guys!
we cant oppose things arranged in life and we cant do things all over again
but we can always continue loving and missing and thinking of each other
it is something no one can change or replace
not even our closest kin
things we share are things no other person can feel or understand
we have the kind of mo qi which others can nv have the same
we love each other till the extent nobody can imagine estimate
like we promise, we'll nv at the very least forget each other
my perfect friends, friends i nv would wan to leave
sometimes i hope and pray..dont take them away from me...

I LOVE JUNICE CHONG SZE JIA<3
my irreplaceable rainbow ok! haha. the most beautiful rainbow i see after a thunderstorm cos u're always waiting at the very end to give me a warm hugg, telling me everything will be alright(:
I LOVE GOH LIFEN<3
my irreplaceable bestie! my twin! always givin me that stupid smile and stupid stuff to make me laugh. i'll nv forget how we spend our days together as best frens(:
I LOVE YEO MINGQI<3
my irreplaceable always-there-in-my-class! whether in training or in class im always seeing you haha! but its funny why we're nv the best of frens haha but its ok u still leave deep footprints in my mind(:and u're always thinking abt other ppl's feeling, so good((:
I LOVE TAN SHUYU<3
my irreplaceable fishy! still rmb the song yu-er yu-er shui zhong you? must always rmb this song i sang for u ok haha(:
I LOVE JEANNE GWEE<3
my irreplaceable jeannnee gweee! haha. u're the most impartial, independent and clever person. everything also good! really admire how u are able to balance frens, studies and vball so well. and u always have ur own thinking(:

i really love you guys. cant bear cant bear cant bear!!!

2007-05-17T18:24:00.000+08:00

hmmm. let me see. how long have it been since i last used blogger?
haha think got one month plus or more le ba.
anyway loads of stuff happened.
during exam almost collapsed due to stress but thanks to my frens who supported me all the way.

got back result ytd and today.
and i failed 3 sub.
e maths, a maths and english.
so much careless mistake!
but im glad my bio and combined science improved this time round.
bio got C6, sci got B4 , one more mark to B3!
chinese got B4, one more mark to B3 too.

my humans like shit!
really feel like giving myself a tight slap on the face.
havent got such bad result for humans before.
and i have never did rubbish like this for history before.
its really rubbish can.
didnt even passed history.
the essay is most disappointing. got 4 and 6 for both essay for history.
i didnt noe wad happen at all its like my standard fell so much suddenly.
didnt noe wad the hell i was doing.
and before exam, i still dared to hope for a result so much better than wad i got in the end.
shame on me mann!

careless careless careless.
im always careless but its not wad i wan right?
nobody wud wan that ok.

always making the wrong decision whether in exam or at any choice.
i really need a wake-up call.

i dont wan to hear
dont wan to see
dont wan anything.
i just wan my things at my own pace.
afterall only i can walk myself out of things in the end.
others could only give me a push.
nobody noes wad repay is.
and theres no such word on the surface of this planet.
nobody bothers anything abt that anyway.

2007-04-16T20:53:00.000+08:00

yesterday.
went study with lover.
and we did that stupid maths specimen paper for 3 hr plus till we're craazy.
and wanna noe wad ppl do when they go craazy?
this is wad they do.

no calculator!

but i want!!

then we started playing with frames...

(: not the end yet..

we started playing with hair..

((: moremore!!

then we started to pose from 1 to 16..

:DD ending!! sooon but not yet :D

at the reservoir! :D

(: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (:

LAST TWO !!

this is for yeo jie ting!

lalalala~~

this is for por zhi mei!

her act cute poseeeeee heh

my resolution for the year.

today.

ran 2.4km during P.E.

timing:10 38min

yea! so happy broke my last year's timing! last year is 11 37.

2007-04-13T17:37:00.000+08:00

yesterday.
we lost.
and we are sad.
but we're even more upset becos its our last match.
anyway thanks to mr lee and the class.
they are so supportive.
before we leave the class they did the 11 claps for us.
and they went to support us too.
we cried like crazy at the bus stop ytd.
i wanted a hug from junice ahd then after hugging her i started crying.
and everyone cried as well.
we really cant bear to leave everyone.
esp junice.
she'll have to stay for another year and i can understand she really feel very sad.
cos she'll be all alone while we leave this school.
and to her she'll feel like she still living in the past while we're already in the future.
we also cried on the bus ytd, when we're going to JP crystal jade.
we cried when we're giving speeches and then we took a photo!
thanks to vivian for helping us develop the photo into wallet size so that we can keep it in our wallet.
and everyone really put the photo in their wallets.
now im looking at it almost all the time.
and in the photo everyone looked so happy though we can still spot ppl's face like just cried before lidat.
ok so we went to crystal jade and i ordered the spicy and sour noodles i think, and though it tasted quite nice, its damm spicy!!
even jeanne cannot tahan.
cynthia and i kept drinking water.
im realy very hungry at that time but its too spicy le.
in the end my stomach is flooding with water and then i no longer feel hungry.
that stupid mingqi tot of a way to make the noodles not so spicy.
she dipped the noodles into the leftover soup then let cynthia eat.
but after awhile cynthia already feel bery full but mingqi still keep forcing her to eat.
stupid mingqi haha.
all of us kept taking photos like its the end of the world.

today.
morning when we have to go up the ' stage ' to give the trophy to ms tham, we cried.
but ofcos we didnt cry on the stage.
but we cried before flag raising.
and after the speech we cried too.
and everyone went hugging each other.
when we went back to our class, we met meiting and jacqueline at the stairs and we ran and hug each other, crying.
i didnt really cry much at that time.
but my eyes are already filled with tears.
mr lee so good today.
he see us like very sad so he took one period of maths to let us play.
he bought a brownie cake from secret recipe for us to celebrate the bdaes of those from jan to april, sep to dec.

after skoo, while waiting for mingqi to finish her oral, i sat outside the classroom with lifen they all.
and then i was looking at the bball court and it reminded me of our hall and the vball court.
i suddenly thought of all of us learning the basics of vball when we're in sec 1.
i reall miss training.
all the days when we've gone thru blood and sweat.
from sec 1 to sec 4.
its like a dream.
when we lost ytd, i realy cant believe it.
its like so untrue.
and it happened too quickly like it really caught me in surprise.
nobody could understand how we felt.
though i noe that we can always go back to skoo and play vball with them, it'll all be different.
the feeling will be totally different.
we may even go back to train like how we used to but its just different.
that is why i cried so hard today.

i guess everyone cried very hard ytd.
cos all of them, their eyes was all so puffy and swollen.
and everyone was feeling so damm tired, including me thought i didnt do much ytd.
but i really screamed like crazy ytd.
i hope i could pass all my energy to them cos theres nothing else i can do.

guys, we've lost but its ok.
there is always a chance to bring that trophy back.
but all out teammates will nv be back here and train tgh.
so lets treasure each other now.
we've only a few months left.
though it seems alot, time flies and the next moment, it'll be their turn to go for o levels.
I'LL NEVER EVER FORGET YOU PPL.
YOU PPL ARE THE CHAMPIONS IN MY HEART!!
AND THATS FOREVER ALRIGHT!!
JUNICE, I LOVE YOU AND WLL MISS YOU.
DEFINITELY, NO DOUBTS.
WE'LL COME BACK AND PLAY VBALL WITH U AS WELL.
AND AS I PROMISED, EVERYTIME I COME BACK I'LL BRING A SMALL PRESENT FOR YOU.
DUN CRY ANYMORE ALRIGHT, UR EYES ARE SMALL ENOUGH HAHA.
JIAYOU OK!
I WAN TO TOUCH THE TROPHY AGAIN NEXT YEAR.
U'LL HELP US GET IT BACK RIGHT!
*JURONG ACE ACE ACE*
ONCE A TEAM, ALWAYS A TEAM.
INSEPARABLE((:
UNREPLACEABLE((:

tkcare my teammates, i love you guys really lots.
muacks((:

2007-04-11T18:36:00.000+08:00

yesterday.
had banana-spilt before assembly.
so delicious yum yum.
it consist of cookies-and-cream, watermelon, mango and banana.
and all of them are of the same colour!-yellow
so coincident yeap!
last trg.

today.
last last trg.
jiayou my babes and bitches.
tml's the last last last day!!
show all ur power!!
i dont wan to cry for losing. i wan to cry for winning.
afterall, all these hardship we've had for 4 years is for today!
we'll ping all the way.
we've long prepared just for tml and we shall make full use of wad we've prepared.
dun let it be a regret.
let it be the most wonderful memories.

and i'll miss you guys, like crazy.
all the bitching sessions, tears, laughs, crazy, screams, angry, hate, love, everything.
no matter much we've known each other, i'll still miss u ppl.
i noe i didnt really have alot of time to be with u all.
didnt really train that much with u all.
but i will not miss u ppl lesser than the others.
tml is the end.
whether fail or succeed, its the end!
so we shud all stay strong and fight tgh right?
we're a team!
we came so far tgh, we'll fight till the end tgh!
i think i'll cry like mad tml.
no one would stop me from crying.
its the end of everything and we have to settle to study.
but before that i wan to hug u guys one by one or all together.
i wan to have a good look at u ppl before the memories fade when i leave this skoo.

life's so unfair, always taking things we love away from us.
and i regretted not treasuring u ppl more when i still have loads of time.
i regret not looking clearly at all ur face when we stil have time.
i regret not playing vball more with u all when we still have time.
i regretted so much things.
but i'll remember wadeva that has happened.
all these made up more than half of my memories.
all the frown and the smiles.
guys, u all are the best ppl i've ever met.
thanks for giving me anger, sadness, happiness and tears.
all that we've gone thru will stay in my heart forever.

do u all still rmb the days when we're being punished?
how we stand together and scream across that road?

do u all still rmb that time when we run the compound till halfway and it rained?
how we ran all the way back drenched?

do u still rmb that time when we quarrelled so fiercely but after going into that toilet, we're fine again?

do u all still rmb the days when we have to use the outdoor court?
we endured the sun everyday but kept asking each other to jiayou?

do u all still rmb the days when we love each other so much, we almost see each other everyday besides sunday?
the days when we meet each other in the morning and afterschool, spending all the time tgh?

rmb the time when our heart broke and we gave each other huggs and tell them we'll always be there?

rmb the time when we sit in the canteen on the first day of school when we first became sec2s?
how we said we've finally become seniors and would have juniors, dont have to be punished, how we would treat our juniors, good or bad and all?

rmb the first time we wore the upper sec uniform?
and now its seems like yesterday.

everything seems like yesterday.
we've got so much memories.
all the crying, smiling, frownings.
all the huggs and kisses.
no matter how much we've hated each other, we'll still miss each other.
becos for my whole secondary life, u ppl are the ones that stand most of my memories.
every memory contains u ppl, flashing thru my mind every now and then.

and then i tot of whether all these would still matter after we left the school.
we'll have our own new bunch of frens again but will they be as close as us?
its like we knew each other's character, habits and we didnt have to act or hide anything from each other.
there is no formality between us.
but will it be the same for the new frens?
i doubt so.
though we've only known each other for 4 years, it feels like it has been a lifetime.
when we tot we still have a couple of years, one flash and we're leaving each other.
these best frens, confidant, soulmates and all.

i'll always keep in my heart.
i'll always rmb.
i'll make sure i nv ever forget.
when we meet in the future on the road, lets not just say hi and walk away.
give each other a hug.
dun forget alright.
remembering is enough for us to be friends forever((:

guys, I LOVE YOU ALL, LIKE CRAZY, ALWAYS((:
JIAYOU TML, I'LL SCREAM FOR U ALL.
RMB TO LISTEN HARD TO MY CHEERS, MY CRIES.
COS IT'LL BE THE LAST TIME U PPL HEAR IT(:

2007-04-09T19:08:00.000+08:00

friday.

-tuition

-home

-mr bean movie-ed.

saturday.

-school

-bugis temple

-bugis street- 2 clothes for 10 each

-home.

sunday,

-tuition

-dinner

-home.

today,

no napha.

history lesson so boring.

if anyone is not convinced, i have pictures as proof!

things angela and i drew on our hands during hist lesson, cos lesson too boring!

play,read, scrabble-ed,eat,watch pull-ups, home.

the me now is not really happy, but not really sad.

just make-do with wadeva im left with.

just hope there'll be ppl to cry for me sincerely and sadly when i leave this skoo.

my resolution for my last year in jurong is to treat ppl better and treasure wadeva im left with.

things for me should hopefully have come to the lowest pt so least it isnt too bad, now that i can manage my lowest pt of life.

all i want is studies and frens-best fren-other things shall wait till end of O levels.

ppl say this last year, time will pass very fast.

one part of me hope it'll pass as fast as it could but another part of me feels the opposite.

somehow im still lingering in the memories of the happiest moment of my secondary life- which is sec 1 that time- when everyone everything is in favour of me.

but when sec 2 starts, things started getting worse and worse by days.

first is vball became like shit, then is this and then is that.

slowly im like becoming a useless person and then slowly nobody even want to bother me anymore.

now i just wan to pick myself up, face the sky, the clouds, take a deep breathe and stride out of sadness.

enough of tears, enough of sorrow.

life goes on..

<3>

your intellectually-disabled ;absent-minded ;b* ass; turtle prince will stay healthy and happy.

thanks alot for ur shoulder, ur jiayous and ur cheer-ups.

u may not be always there but least u made the effort to be there for the most of the time.

thanks darling; tortoise; cookie-rubbish princess((:

<3xiang>

thanks alot. so shocked u'll tagg my blog. i will try to to happy de. try to smile and laugh like crazy for the rest of my days in jurong((:

u're getting prettier le also hor. haha, shud smile more also. pretty xiang xiang((:

2007-04-05T19:35:00.000+08:00

yesterday.
omg they played damm well!
the other side played well as well but from wad i can see for us, they finally showed their power.
the previous matches its like they duno why like not on-form lidat but ytd was fabulous.
and i screamed like crazy there.
really hoping and wishing and praying and finally!!

wish them lucks and lucks and lucks for the one last match.
so that we can graduate with all the happiness and accomplishment.
realy cant bear to leave this skoo, all the memories and all from sec 1 till now.
but its not something somebody could decide.
and everyone would definitely choose to stay if they could.
hmmm..just hope they will play till their fullest for one more time again.
jiayou!!

i wan to watch them carry the flag and run for one more time.
and i wish to run with them for one more time again.
i wish to be able to sit by them and scream like i did ytd.
i wan them to hear my cheers so that least i did something for them.
and not when im screaming up there, nobody hears me.
i wan to be with them, to be like a team with them.
well, all these are only wad i wan but noe i would not get it.
just hope they will win!
i will be damm happy.
happy like crazy.

2007-04-03T19:15:00.000+08:00

yesterday.
pe was like shit. 1 warm-up round, 5 crazy rounds. ran-ed like hell.
ok i noe it was our fault. but it was crazy. 4.8 km in total, for ONE PE LESSON.
nvm, can slim down too! *hee*

eng test damm diff!
no chem tuition! hee(:
took photos of gay slippers and with my tuition fren andy!
he was like damm shy dun wan take wid me but i forced him and in the end he gave in. haa(:
borrowed his specs and took 2 stupid pics hee.
and i took a pic of my tuition tcher secretly too! but he found out sob.

sometimes i do wonder, am i strong anot?
and then i came to this stupid logic that if it isnt, i wont be here.
im here not becos of anyone, cos nobody save my day or wadsoeva.
i save my own day, make myself happy.
so i think i can say im strong yea?

to jasmine<3>

thanks alot. i think u're always the first to find out whether im sad or happy in class. though its becos u sat beside me but least u understand. so many others was near me but everyone doesnt seems to feel anything. and thanks for ur shoulder. i've been waiting for a shoulder for so long and thanks u're willing to lend it out. sometimes things u're expecting just wouldnt come but things u're unexpecting just pop out like that, like once in a lifetime. alright im talking nonsence again. dreams are afterall dreams and always so unrealistic ya, i'll try to live my life strong((:

2007-04-01T19:35:00.001+08:00

speech day ytd.
finally dun have to watch the concert can watch parade le.
took photo wid mr lee! and ms ong!
mr lee so lame and funny.cos he is wearing a short-sleeved pink shirt with a red tie.

then we all keep saying why he so odd and he told us abt his wife saying he looks like hes going to a wedding when hes wearing the long-sleeve shirt and so he changed into that short-sleeved one.and i was like thinking wad a good husband he is. listen to his wife so much.

and then he kept saying he is below 30 thus must wear short sleeve and its just so coincident that all the tchers above 30 are wearing long-sleeve and we canot find anything to say back to him den mr lee kept luffing so funnily.

after parade we managed to get mr lee and ms ong to talk photo with us.

after parade, went mac, then to town with jeanne, mingqi and qi hui.

watched the show: number23. quite a nice and brilliant show cos it really linked everything with the number.went home at abt 3,4 plus.

on the mrt, qi hui fell asleep and she was leaning on jeanne's leg without her knowing. so i took a few ugly pics but as i promised i shall only show one pic which is nto ugly.

at night,
called pengyang dunno for wad reason in the first place but we chatted awhile after that.
and then he told me something and i decided to give up.
and pengyang! u can stop breathing and give up soccer le.
cos u said if i realy give up, u'll stop breathing and give up on soccer.
anyway i was disappointed thats why.
sometimes i think we shouldnt trust anyone at all.esp guys. they always hide things. my ex was like that too.
and then even later at night, i called again and he told me was he said and it jsut couldnt stop flowing.
i didnt noe why. not exactly sad but dunno why.

and while i was crying, i was thinking, how i wish he could tell me.. its all just april fool.it started on this day and ended on this day.

and today pengyang bought me green tea, choc and pooh. thanks for being there but i wan to heal myself, i wan to grow stronger by myself becos in the future nobody else will be there to hel besides myself.

2007-03-30T12:00:00.000+08:00

sick.
yesterday and today.
yesterday 38.5 today morning still at about 38.3 lidat.
went to see doctor twice.
mother kept scolding me for not taking care of myself.
cant go skoo for today and tml.
but i miss them!
i wan go skoo tml!
if tml recovers i'll go skoo.

feeling sore all over.
esp when im still having fever.
even the skin feels pain when the water from the shower fell on my skin.
drowsy throughout the whole day.
only after eating the 2nd doc's antibiotic and panadol that i felt better.

dun have appetitie.
ate only half bowl of porridge.
this morning almost vomit after eating the porridge.
really felt terrible.

taste of medicine in my mouth.
seems to taste nothing beside med.
always feel like vomitting when i was finishing the porridge soon.
cant finish the porridge.

i miss them!!

2007-03-27T20:33:00.000+08:00

stupid!
i have never seen a girl like her before.
feel like slapping her lor.
stubborn, selfish, attitude, coward.

u ask urself la.
u got do anything wrong anot.
if u think u didnt, come and tell us la, we will list them out one by one for you.
but u cant name it out right?
then just shut up and receive the punishment.
still dare to scold us.
dun think by doing that u're very pro lor.
ur character is so damm bad.
when everyone did so much things for u all u noe is stand down there looking blankly at us as if we wronged you.
and still dare to say u dun wan them to be ur good frens!
really wonder wad ur heart is made of.
shit, maybe.
heartless creature.
a human's face with a devil's heart.
when everyone screamed like hell, all u did is shout so softly.
feel like killing you mann.
the worst human i've ever seen.
and if u dare to complain, it only proves you to be a coward and sumore a coward who dares not admit ur mistakes.
let me tell u, u wont go far with this kind of attitude one lor.
dwell on, and u'll noe how ur future looks like.

damm angry!
but luckily my day is not totally ruined.
my ah ma cooked ' dong fen ' for dinner.
didnt noe why she cooked that but its my fav!
thanks ah ma!
i love you((:

2007-03-25T15:37:00.000+08:00

yesterday.
went to JP wid lifen and her sis to watch STOMP THE YARD!
wao its damm nice!
the breakdance and all that.
omg.
i love that show mann.
hope in the future still got more of that kind of show.
went for tuition after that.
have to wear that stupid shirt and forgot to bring keys, nobody's home, haven change into that shirt so no choice have to go jasmine's hse change.
jasmine had fun browsing thru my friendster msges which i've kept from sec 2 till now.
and shes now crazily calling me linlin and little wheat grass due to some msges.
stupid princess!
reached home at 10 cos tuition till so late and the bus so diff to wait.

today.
still got tuition from 4 to 6.
haiz.
weather so hot, i need a bath.
gotta run.

2007-03-23T19:40:00.000+08:00

omg.
shitty asses.
junice told me something which make me so fed-up!
i've been duped for so long and untill more than 1 year later that i finally knew the truth.
all that lies mann!
you told me u thought the same way as me and yet in the end you are the one doing that stupid thing i dislike!
like a murderer saying ' murderers deserve a death sentence '.
damm stupid.
im so glad i left before you.
so glad we didnt stayed on.

ran damm slow today.
got no medals at all can.
took part in 400m and run like hell.
totally like the slowest one among them.
haiz.
and i didnt play fart leg!!
stupid sia.
they ran so fast lor.
so fast untill the distance between them and the next runner was like more than 100m.
and i din take part!
if i did i also dun have to run that fast cos the distance is big enuff liao lor.
stupid stupid stupid!
and this year they got the medals for fart leg!
stupid me!

stupid you made me so damm sad.
when i plucked my courage to speak, its almost like you made me shut up.

im such a failure.

rainbow! jiayou! we support you ok.
work hard for us k.
cos this is our last year, the last 3 matches le!!
i believe you can do it!
i want to see you all win the championship before we leave this school!
i dun wan this to be a regret for u or for others.
i believe u want to win the last finals with us while we're still in this school too right.
so jiayou!
rmb you're the best.

the only regret i could have in this school will only be that i couldnt run the court one round with you ppl carrying the flag.
though i noe i shouldnt say it so early that you ppl will get the chance of holding the flag and run, i said it becos whether u all make it or not i wouldnt be there.
im blocked by the railings and crowds and noises, i bet nobody'll notice me.

well, who cant do without me?
honestly, nobody.

i looked back at the posts i have 1 year ago and it makes me laugh.
the funny thing is i seemed to be typing things over and over again.
the sad thing is all i typed was failure.

2007-03-21T17:49:00.000+08:00

monday night.
dunno who so idiot go and put me run 1500.
in the end came back 4th cos only 5 person running.
before that even more pathetic only got 4 person running-jasmine,nurulhuda,junko,me- den i ask meiting run with me.
or else really damm pathetic and im already fated to come back last le.
thanks to junko cos she really let me run infront of her.
she can overtake me long before i reach the 3rd round but she didnt and instead kept stressing me so that i will run faster.
but in the end ofcos i couldnt take it anymore and she have no choice but to overtake me cos alot of ppl can tell that she can run faster de.

the run was really scary.
damm tiring.
its so so so different from running 2 rounds of school compound.
and instead they say 2 round of compound is more than 1600 but somehow this 1500 is even more tiring.
but im glad i completed the race cos i haven been running for ages and least i finally did something for my house.
but i dun wan to run 400m on friday le.
phobia phobia.

after the run stll have to go for tuition from 5 30 to 9 30.
really damm tired.
drank 2 bottles of 100 plus orange during tuition.

went home, my mother scold my sis for getting back such bad result den my 1st uncle KPO oso come and scold her den still say everytime see me very late go home.
and accused me of going out with frens untill very late just that he didnt wan to tell my mother only.
and my mother still come and qn me when she should noe that i go for tuition thats why will come back so late.
really dammt tired le still have to take this kind of stupid scoldings.
and i cried quite long, i guess.
and ofcos there are many other things that i cried for. once and for all.

yesterday.
that 2 person one down there and one up there.
so damm idiot.
its so obvious can.
ur school also canot lidat help one right.
both of u are not fit to stand there lor.
esp the one standing on the ground one.
kick ur backside ar.

today.
damm tired after chem and phy test.
finally finish the test le.
think i will fail phy.
chem damm easy.
damm happy for my eng cos i thought i would fail when i got my comprehension yesterday i tink.
i got 20/50 for compre but today got compo and i got 20/30.
luckily nv fail when added tgh sia.
phew.
hope all my result can improve and improve and improve!

down with sneezes.
used so much tissue today.
hmmm..abt 4,5 packs?
its not exaggerating. its true.
made me feel so sickly and sleepy.

ah shit.
i haven started studying for mid-yr yet.
must faster start le.
others are already ahead of me.
i must catch up.
dont wan to fail in everything.
i wan no cheers no support.
cos its all no use.
i just do things my way.

thanks for tagging- angela and junice.

2007-03-13T20:37:00.000+08:00

i find it so amusing i want to laugh.

i go around and roung gathering all the people and listen to their grudges, sadness, or anything they have to say.

i asked this person not to be sad, ask the other to be happy.

and i didnt even have somebody whos always there to listen to mine.

i dont even have somebody whos automatic and always there to ask me not to be sad and to be happy.

i go ard making ppl believe that life isnt that bad.

and here i am feeling that life's unfair and miserable.

i go ard wiping tears, trying to make ppl confide in me.

yet nobody wipes my tears or offers to be my confidante.

now i dont wan it anymore.
i wan my world for my own.
i wan to be my own confidante.
i wan to tell myself all the secrets.
i wan to cry and wipe the tears myself.
i wan to be sad and tell myself not to be sad but to be happy.
i wan to fall down and carry myself up.

because i have always been doing that.
ever since dunno when.
when all my confidante started leaving to meddle with their own stuffs.
and yes not only i have my problems.
and ppl need to settle their problems as well.
and so this is the best solution.
for me to meddle my own stuff as well.
i can wipe the tears of others and myself as well.
when all my confidantes go out and find other confidantes, i shall just let them go.
cos they have been long gone.
its just me that cant accept the fact till now.
they may say they will always be there- many ppl says this-but nobody actually did this.
when they are there, they meant when u make it obvious to let them know u are hurt and then they will come and comfort u.
but i didnt wan this.
i wan a confidante who would confide in me and hear my grudges at the same time.
but i dont have one now.
till perhaps next year or next next year when i found one, maybe for the time being i shall just keep things to myself.
i dont want to bother anyone.
i dont want anyone to bother me.
i dont want.
i dont.
Dont.
i just wan to smile alone.
i wan to smile alone.
i smile alone.
smile alone.
Alone.

2007-03-13T16:09:00.000+08:00

snaps!

small tiny hearts from that bottle.

my world.

that day new year at kenny's hse. omg how come my laogong got so many affairs de. tsk tsk.

mingqi and jasmine! NERD-MANIA!!

omg im so touched.

michelle is so thoughtful!

cos they all can collect the money for refreshment but i canot.

den michelle told mingqi i tink den all of them pooled up their money to 5 dollars which is wad they got for their refreshments, and give it to me.

then michelle say cos we're a whole team. omg im so touched!!

thanks to michelle and mingqi and everybody!!

went to trim eyebrows after eating with them just now.

heard from my mother that my grandmother that time go hospital check-up then now the hospitall say my grandmother got 3 stones in her duno uritary or duno wad la.

den have to go thru operation.

hope she'll be fine.

haiz always dun wan to take care of herself.

tsk tsk.

2007-03-11T22:45:00.000+08:00

i didnt noe why but suddenly i felt so unfair.
i knew this world has never been fair.
i knew things always turn out so unfair for me.
but i couldnt take it now.
when i should be the one sadder than anyone else somebody else received the care instead.
when i should be the one crying somebody else cried first instead.
and all those storytellers!
stop telling me tales.
tales are only meant to cover.
when the time come they give u the facts that u cant deny.

i really feel like crying everytime i think ppl with somebody there to care for them always.
somebody fixed.
while i have nothing and instead have to care for somebody else.
have anyone thought of me?
i have so little things left.
like all my belonging's been snatched and left all alone on the streets and nobody barely notice.

i have no aims,
no dreams,
no love,
no care,
no nothing.

2007-03-11T21:39:00.000+08:00

went cut hair wit junice ytd at shirley mah.
den went town to find my bag.
and found it! its qite costly and the design is not really very impressive but i didnt noe why i somehow like it and bought it. $89.90
lunch-ed at pastamania.
tea break-ed at coffee club. iced mocha vanilla yummy!

my new volcom bag.

pooh!

2007-03-09T20:27:00.000+08:00

now all are in pairs.
not only couples, even buddies.
i cant find my part.

i see dancing angels in my eyes and i wonder how long im able to keep them with me.
i saw dandelions flying away with the wind and i wonder if they'll bring me along.
i saw pairs walking and mumbling and i wonder if they will share it with me.

im always getting and losing.
its really so disappointing.
i wonder when this will stop happening to me.

i didnt noe what im looking forward to everyday.
i work hard for the sake of nothing.
wait for the sake of nothing.
treat ppl good for the sake of nothing. ok perhaps not good enough.

everytime i couldnt take it theres no way i could go.
i turn right and i saw no place for me, i turn left and the place is taken.
all i could do was to turn my back from all these or walk away without looking back.

i wish i could share these with somebody.
but nobody wishes to share anything with me.
so what for should i share this with them?
they wouldnt bother anyway.

i fill my mind with thoughts.
dazing away in my lala land, just to hope to get away from this world for a few seconds.
and this stupid me have took the lift to the wrong floorth with other ppl and only realised when i couldnt recognise the door.
sometimes i didnt even press the floorth den jiu follow other ppl out of the lift le.
its really damm embarassing.

i want to fly with the dandelions and disappear from this world.

2007-03-04T15:37:00.000+08:00

LAST..

monday: frisby-ed, team won. bio asap. tuition till 9 30.
tuesday: match, jasmine hse; gamble; hua yang shao nian shao nu.
wednesday: tuition till 5 30.
thursday: as usual, rushed back home watch hua yang.
friday: as usual, rushed back home.
saturday: stayed at home take care of my sis till 4 plus, went kenny hse, gambled with peanuts , played with kenny brother. neo print-ed, KFC-ed.
TODAY: tuition.

i believe this whole year will go on and on with the same routine.
my life is filled with books and friends and thats all i want.

i dun like him le stop saying i like him.
i dun like him le stop saying i like him.
i dun like him le stop saying i like him.
i dun like him le stop saying i like him.
i dun like him le stop saying i like him.
i dun like him le stop saying i like him.
i dun like him le stop saying i like him.
i dun like him le stop saying i like him.
i dun like him le stop saying i like him.
i dun like him le stop saying i like him.

its the end of the story.

2007-02-25T21:18:00.000+08:00

just now so idiot sia. when i coming for tuition from my own hse i board the bus but forgot that my card got no more money. den i oso dun have change. den i tell that bus driver and he asked me to go change with other ppl. den its like i only got one 50 dollar notes and nobody got change. den luckily got one kind uncle gimme 6o cents. that bus driver so gek gao one sia. 60 cents only wad. that time i only got 30 cents but that bus driver oso let me in. this uncle so unfriendly de. though i noe its his job but one 60 cents nvm one wad. tsk tsk.

celebrated fanny's birthday after tuition just now. went to superbowl eat zhu chao. den still got cake and all. den jieting me jasmine fanny and angela they all playing with the cake. jieting dunno is accidentally or purposely one when she wanted to put cream on my face she accidentally put her finger into my nose. hahaha. and jasmine saw everything- including the choc cake in my nose- and she was like luffing like hell. had quite a fun day. the rest of the them went to archade. me jasmine fanny and shawn left first. lifen didnt join us cos she injured hope she'll be fine.

2007-02-25T15:42:00.000+08:00

over new year happened loads of things. watched movie, got ang paos and loads.
watched ' just follow law ' hmmm not as nice as the previous few neo films and this movie like abit no link ith its title. but overall quite funny. i like the part when the 4 of them perform tgh and that girl who always say have to write in to blablabla..
watched ' twins mission ' as well. not very nice. abit like those kind of old action movie. but the names of those twins very funny. got 2 call mona and lisa another call marco and polo den the snake call snake porridge and snake soup. so funny.

yesterday went lifen hse den jeanne hse, followed by zhiwen hse den kenghuat hse den huiling hse. kenghuat's sis's dog dustee so cute! like to carry the dog cos its fur very soft but that dog quite fierce. when u touch its head it will bite you de. got bit once though not very painful but i can feel that its teeth is very sharp. went huiling hse to eat steamboat and gambled abit. dont really like to gamble but yesterday quite fun. jeanne so lucky leng leng win duno how much la. and shes so gal yesterday. though she wore shorts and shirt like very simple lidat but havent seen her look so gal before and her actions all these really like ms ong lidat. den we kept teasing her. haha. stayed at huiling hse till abt 9 plus. mingqi was sick den they all bring her go jurong east see doctor. hope she'll be fine.

2007-02-19T20:11:00.000+08:00

yea!! the blogskin finally appeared. yea.. its nice right!! haha. paper love. nice nice.
still need some song. hmmm..but duno got wad song nice. i need new songs!!

omg just back from Escape. stupid right. all becos of my stupid sister and it rained the whole day. only managed to play the pirate ship twice. stupid stupid la!!
and my feet's so painful. all becos of my new shoe. haiz. every year have to suffer the same things sia.
ytd watched ' follow the law '. i like the part when the 4 of them perform. so cute! their facial expression and the coordination with the music and all. haha. but this time the movie not that touching anymore.
gonna go bai nian with angela they all tml! maybe watching ' morbit' too. shud be very funny.
saturday going bai nian with junice they all! den going huiling hse eat steamboat. haha near my hse so convenient. haha.

new year happy but after new year have to face all those exams and studies again. i need to cut down all the distraction and calm myself to study hard. but everytime i wanted to start studying, all those annoying stuff pop out again. stupid sia. haiz.. wanna spent more time with frens as well cos its last year le. but i guess i shud have done this earlier cos this year is study year liao. haiz. contradicting sia.

oh ya, sports day have to run 400m and fart-leg (is it spelled this way?).everytime i think of this my heart wil suddenly pump very fast sia. i will feel blood darting ard in my vessels and my palms will sweat de. cos its this first time i run for a normal competition after 5,6 years? omg. damm nervous though the date's like so far away. can i not run? no. cos its been confirmed. god.. lastyear first time run fart-leg also so slow le..sumore so tired le this year still have to run 400. i really have no confidence sia. haiz. who can save me?

2007-02-19T20:08:00.000+08:00

ahh.. stupid blog. i wan to change blogskin but dunno why it just wouldnt budge. anyway i guess this blogof mine can close down le. cos its like i didnt have time to blog at all. studying, tuition, training and all. so much things to do where got time to use com?
well, many things happened but jus didnt have time to note them all down here. and im too lazy to write it elsewhere. hmmm..this year maybe just stop bloggin? after this year den sae ba. settle my O lvls first.

2007-01-30T18:36:00.000+08:00

many many stuff getting out of hand.
for me and many others.
and ytd things didnt go well. well, some things didnt..

its like u didnt really trust me.
ok i didnt mean u shud trust me wholeheartedly but its like am i such a fake?
and just becos of those "tears" and you can think im in the wrong.
and wad he/she said was like so long so long ago de things liao and after that matter we all oso ok with he/she le and i didnt noe why he/she have to take it out to say and i didnt understand why u'll think its bad of me now when that stuff happened million years ago and we didnt do wad we did noe becos of that matter.
and i have explained to u before why now we will do things we did.
and i noe its bad of me to have done that but wad abt u?
have u treated ur frens any better?
and to think u saying me when u arent any better, it really makes my blood boils.
and just becos u ppl saw abit of the evidence u all thought its all our/my fault so u think thats fair for us as well?
just becos he/she is one person and u can jolly well say we're bullying?
wad shit, wad logic.
wadeva, like i said its the last year i dun wana care a thing.

yea tml can go watch match dun have to be left behind in school.
im still thinking i wil cry anot and there came that happy news.
its still fair afterall isnt it?
and no tuition tml!!
im so happy today((:

got back a maths result today and i got 22!
still left with 1/2 mark jiu pass le but luckily dun have to drop.
but for me its conditional pass that mean i have to do assignments and hand in every monday till april.

sakae stuffed my stomach till so full yesterday, it lasted me till the next morning.

OMG I JUST DID A VERY STUPID THING. I SENT THE WRONG MSG AND OMG IM SUCH A JOKE. MUDDLEHEAD SIA. DIG A HOLE FOR ME...

tml's my mother's birthday and i bought perlini necklace for her ytd.
still haven give her yet.
but it made me so sad when she said im useless just now.
she said it just infront of me and it really pains me.
she praised my sis for caring so much for her yet im always lazy and only ask for money.
ya, shes the best and im just useless in every way.

oh do wad all u wan mann.
u thought i couldnt tell that u're purposely against us?
wadeva u just dont matter.
and that solved the problem.

2007-01-26T21:27:00.000+08:00

it really pains me whenever i see them all together and though im there im like only a shadow.
you said i belong but somehow i feel i dont.
u ppl say im thinking too much and ya, its true but if not for all these fears do you think i'll still think as much?
im sad cos i care.
sometimes i feel like walking alone, just get away from whatever im feeling.
yea..now its alot better and i think its enough.
just feeling sad at the moment.
everytime i saw all your blogs, like you all belong to your own blog and i dun belong.
im always absent.
i think things will get worse when all those stuff starts?
well, im numb anyway.

2007-01-26T19:54:00.000+08:00

went bio lab yesterday. experiment-ed! so fun.
went to watch them play today. hmmm..u guys must work hard alright. jiayou i have confidence in u ppl. nobody plays well for every match. just do your best, show your best alright. we'll all be there to support you guys. you guys have a long long way ahead! jiayou!!

im not even grouped as the ' worst '. though somehow i've got numb, pain still exist. whenever i thought of all those days when they'll sing in the buses, have fun and i have to stay in school and attend those lesson. ya, i wont miss lessons but i'll miss them. miss them so much so much. hope they'll do better ~~without me~~ .

2007-01-23T20:07:00.000+08:00

hmmm..like i havent been bloggin for years. well been busy ever since the start of the year and guess will be the same till the end of the year. this year'll be the busiest year for me. bothered by studies,tuitions and all.

went to his birdthday party last sat. had quite some fun. first time go bbq will eat til full de. bought a billabong wallet for him. i wanted to buy a ripcurl wallet in the first place but did not have enough capital u see. ripcurl one costs 60 plus leh. siao lor. i didnt even spend so much for a wallet for myself. and i had to save a whole 2 week's money lor. feeding myself on bread everyday and i guess he didnt bother or even thought of bothering but well its my will afterall. hmmm.. so yupp though is billabong one but still not cheap alright. i shant say the cost and maybe it isnt really that ex afterall but i saved for it ok! try feeding urself with bread for one whole week and u'll noe how ke lian it is. hmmm..thanks to JOHNATHAN cos he say he helped me tell everyone not to buy wallet cos im buying it. okthanks alot but u still wouldnt get ur wallet for bdae one la. haha. one bottle of drinks still can. claim from me ba. if u havent seen my blog den too bad.
that day after his bdae party i went home with shuyu and lifen. when lifen and i was on the way to the interchange there got one guy suddenly walk very close to me den he like accidentally hold dao my hand lidat den i tot he accidentally one so i say sorry. den he sae i hold dao ur hand ar den i say ya sorry. den he sae wad i hold dao ur hand nvm la.. den he kept talking to me but i just kept ignoring. den lifen pushed me to walk infront. if he cont pestering i tink i will just scream and scold him lor. make him embarrass! stupid lor. in the end have to miss one 143 cos hes taking it..

today the motivational talk like so sian. my group so da bian de. that tcher talk like no fun lidat. no emotions lidat. see other group like keep luffing lidat so good. my group like no much ppl same group with me den all the ppl oso thhose quiet quiet one. haiz.. waste our whole day's time sia. might as well have lessons.

training still that sian. but i hope to do wadeva i can to help them. if theres anything i can do to help, i will. cos i guess theres nothing else i can do there le. everyday go there like can only do warm-up den pick balls only. if not will be slip the cards while they are playing match. haiz. am i that useless?

2007-01-19T18:29:00.000+08:00

17th

went for tuition and the room was like damm cold. towards the end of the lesson i felt my hands like numb le lor. den its really like ' ma bi ' lidat. and im really not feeling well at all.reached home and my aunt found me having fever.so she took me to the doctor and all. my temp was 39.3 when i was at the doc there but i thought it was quite normal. after reaching home had medicine and went to bed till 9. my whole body was like burning hot lor. i could feel the heat from my head to toe and my face damm red like i've just came back from under the sun.

18th

had to stay at home for the whole day. was damm boring but i didnt care much cos i had medicine and was drowsy the whole morning. kept sleeping and sleeping. didnt have much strength to move ard. heard that ms tang and ms koh never come. stupid one i nv come they also never come. but nvm least i wouldnt miss any lesson.

19th

almost totally recovered, just the sore throat getting worse cos just now go watch junior's match and somehow screamed too much. missed biology lesson cos leave school early.

2007-01-16T21:16:00.000+08:00

today is a tiring yet happy day.
didnt noe wad makes me happy but im just abit ' high ' today.
whether in class or in the bus.
in class im like crazy, did so much lame stuff and made jasmine and yong hao go dot dot dot.
on bus im also like crazy, did lame stuff again and made lifen laugh till she going to die le.
hack-cared all misery during trg.
whether im at the side flipping the cards or ard picking balls, as long as i keep my mood unaffected by all those stuff i can be happy all day long.
nothing shall spoil my mood.

u seemed so far, like you've walked a long distance ahead while im still waiting there.
im like fire yet u're the water and i can never go near you.
shes so soluble and u 2 are just right.
well, i said i'll forget and for the last time i must.
but u're always near and far, near and far and i couldnt set my foot wad i should do.

2007-01-15T18:13:00.000+08:00

Hypocriticism.
how fake. double sided. do all you want i dont wana care. you're wad i call bitch. im sorry to use this word and perhaps im wrong but somehow i've got so much evidence.yea human isnt perfect but like i said before imperfect doesnt gives you a reason to do something like this. guess everyone else's blind. well, let them fall into those traps then. im sick and tired of all these. let everything be wad they wanted to. just one last reminder, an apple doesnt have to bear apple flesh inside. nothing is always wad it seems to be. forget it, i guess nobody bothers wad i say here anything. they'll just think that im just being lame or thinking too much or being too sad. wadeva.

Nothing seems to lift my mood. not that everything is opposing me but i just feel kinda moody. im wore out by all the things that have been happening since last year till now. i dun wan to repeat all the same words again. whenever i see somebody whispering infront of me or wad i used to be very curious. but now my curiosity seemed to have weakened and instead my tirednedd grew stronger. im really really sick of everythings and slowly, im simply learnt to ignore and return to my own LaLa land. nobody actually bothers if u havent showed anything. maybe they are too un-observant. everyone is the same, including me. well, life isnt fair.

2007-01-14T21:30:00.000+08:00

i just wan to reply the taggs for today and i think i saw some unfriendly remarks.
and once again i duno how many times this cycle has to go on.
everytime theres all these bunch of shits everytime go and tagg those stupid stuff and dont wan to leave their names.
like they are really so bo liao and coward.
im sick of al these ppl, please get out of my blog la.
as if u have the rights to say me.
as if u have the rights to critisize wadeva i saes.
as if i offended you.
i can say i havent offended anyone recently lor.
so get ur big stupid asses out of my blog can.
i dont wan debating to begin again in my blog.
those stupid screams abt whos right and whos wrong are so so stupid.
and when i've had enough of everything i dont understand why humans are so irritating.
come again and i make sure i curse you till you never have one day of happiness.
and i mean wad i say.
dont blame me when that time comes becos u made me do it.
u push the limit and you came and disturb me first.
esp when im not in a good mood!
stop poking stupid pig head into my life and my blog.
go away!!!

replies:
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thanks my friends i'll be fine.
<3 SHIH CHIANG
haha im wondering wads so secretive

TO " NAME ":
u mean somebody gave you this textbook and u cant say its urs and u must say it belongs to the publisher? the school gave you this locker and u cant sae it belongs to you and have to say it belongs to the construction worker? no logic. and since i've wrote there that if u have any comments u have to put down ur name unless you're a coward, now i can tell who u are. u're just a coward and nothing else. and please la. i duno why u ppl can be so free everyday go ppl's blog and tagg those disturbing stuff. grow up please.

TO " BLAH BLAH BLAH "
you are?